Lets forget the negatives!

Hi! It's 2012!

Saturday, March 10, 2012 ( 3:00 AM )

It's been a year since I last blogged... =X

Life's still the same...

Work, Study and Slp...

That's my life.

Erm, maybe, a few new sports/activities from 2011 till now -- Badminton, Night Cycling and Night Photography.

Been playing badminton for quite a while, making it a weekly event, be it with my friends, colleagues or even strangers...

As for night cycling and photo-shooting, there are just my solo activities, I like it the way night time feels, chill and free...

I FEEL WIND, I FEEL SPEED, I FEEL FREEDOM.

I'm having a stronger and stronger urge to quit my job.

Ha! But guess what, I doubt in anyway can I quit my job, it's kinda like "can't live without it"...

Why is this so?

I went for Wisdom Tooth Operation on 1 Mar'12, 4 teeth at one go, meanwhile, before my ops and aft my ops when I'm on medical leave, I'm still working, can you imagine? Before my ops, I worked till 3am, and just before I enters the ward, I even receive smses abt work, what's this?

I even dreamt of work and I even got insomnia cos of stress from work...

I am sick, real sick of the culture/working environment.

Is god trying to tell me that it's time for me to go?

2012 - Let me put my faith in you, don't let me fall, hang in there.

2014 - Aiming to pass all my ACCA modules, I hope I can, I hope I do, and I must really do!!!

*P.S. To those friends who doesn't bother about me, remain as it is, your definition of "Friend" is just like when you need me, I'm there but you would never bother to take the initiative to care for your friend! Let's don't talk about being there for your friend, we shall look at the simple thing like remember what your friend said, I doubt you do! I think this kind of friend, I had a lot out there, it doesn't matter if I have one less of them...

Pls get out of my life. I hate this kind of feeling, as if I'm a fool or a "single-sided friend". Thank you very much.

=Jac=

Everything's fine.

Thursday, April 21, 2011 ( 11:51 PM )

Everything's fine.

I really thought so.
And yea, t-h-o-u-g-h-t...

I dunno what happened to me.

Workload is not as great as others, but am I stressed?

I feel like crying whenever I got home after work, alone in my room, why?

I was in my room, I dun have to put on a smile, I dun have to listen to what other ppl said, I dun have to even pay attention and be alert to anyone, anything.

I can do whatever I like, surf net, watch shows, and even talking to myself can be an enjoyment.

Is it because I removed my "mask" and be myself that I really missed and enjoyed to be so much, tt's y I can cry just as I like?

I dunno y I cry but I juz did.
I dunno wat happened to me but I juz became the "Me" that I wanted to be or rather, the "Me" that nobody knows other than myself, when I am alone.

Cry Jac, cry.
U ain't wrong, release and relieve.

Tears ain't weapon, ain't sympathy, ain't anything else other than your emotion.

Be true to yourself.

=Jac=

Tired of saying tired.

( 2:02 AM )

Tired of saying tired.

Since when "tired" becomes part of me and I mentioned it almost everyday...

I'm missing something.
I realised I forgt how I was in the past...

Just like any other day where I hate to think of my past, cos they are just a mirror showing and proving what a fool I have been all these while.

Now, I couldnt recall those that I doesnt want to forgt, but neither do I manage to forgt all the stupid stuffs I did, why?
But 1 thing I know for sure is, both good and bad memories, aint that clear anymore, they are somewhat, vade...

I resort to violence.

Unbelievably, I feel that pain can surpass the shamefulness I felt whenever I thought abt the past...

=Jac=

Time to consider a change of job?

Sunday, December 12, 2010 ( 5:55 AM )

Time to consider a change of job?

Sick and tired of this job.

Finding my goal in life, what do I actually want and how can I achieve it and if I can get it...

Lost of goal is like living without my soul, where should I go, where do I belong?

=Jac=

Difference between employee and boss...

Saturday, November 20, 2010 ( 8:35 PM )

When you take a long time, you're slow.
When your boss takes a long time, he's thorough.

When you don't do it, you're lazy.
When your boss doesn't do it, he's too busy.

When you make a mistake, you're an idiot.
When your boss makes a mistake, he's only human.

When doing something without being told, you're overstepping your authority.
When your boss does the same thing, that's initiative.

When you take a stand, you're being bull-headed.
When your boss does it, he's being firm.

When you overlooked a rule of etiquette, you're being rude.
When your boss skips a few rules, he's being original.

When you please your boss, you're apple polishing.
When your boss pleases his boss, he's being co-operative.

When you're out of the office, you're wandering around.
When your boss is out of the office, he's on business.

When you're on a day off sick, you're always sick.
When your boss is a day off sick, he must be very ill.

When you apply for leave, you must be going for an interview.
When your boss applies for leave, it's because he's overworked.

=Jac=

Little truth...

Friday, November 12, 2010 ( 9:52 AM )

Behind every “just kidding”, there’s always a little truth;

Behind every “just wondering”, there’s always a little curiosity;

Behind every “I don’t care”, there’s always a little emotion;

Behind every “I don’t know”, there’s always a little knowledge; and

Behind every “it’s okay”, there’s always…a little pain.

=Jac=

Too bz to blog...

Sunday, August 22, 2010 ( 3:18 PM )

Too bz to blog...

Somehow I've been tweeting more than I post on fb and blog...

Though this month (August) is consider as my work's "off-peak" period, however, I've been staying late for work and even weekends...

Forgt how many weekends burnt for work and there isn't much time for myself...

Tired also must juggle with work and studies...

Stressed~

And the more I travel around for sch and for work, the more I feel like getting myself a bike...

Considering 2nd hand bike, but if I gt enough for downpayment, I'll get 1st hand bike... =X

Honda CBR 150

Yamaha YZF R15

Not sure, but was so tempted to own one sia... =X

=Jac=

21st Birthday Wishlist

Saturday, July 10, 2010 ( 1:31 AM )

21st Birthday Wishlist:

1) Ang Bao!!! (Money) $$$ [Most preferred!!! XD]
2) Voice Recorder for ACCA classes
3) Camera (Digital, Lomography etc)
4) Waist Pouch/Gym Bag (Dark colours,simple,no much design de...Gym bag frm Nike/Adidas? XD)
5) Perfume (Can't find wat I wan,perhaps,Davidoff Coolwater,Escada,Moschino Funny...etc? XD)
6) Bracelet (Stainless Steel,not too thin de,not girly de...=X)
7) Sport/Leisure Jacket (Like Nike/Adidas design de? XD)
8) Guitar (Acoustic/Classical)
9) Mitch Albom whole series (Hav a lil faith, Tue w Morrie, The 5 ppl u meet in heaven, For 1 more day etc)

*For the time being are the above... XD

=Jac=