Lets forget the negatives!

Common Tests- Taxation, IFA, BLAW, COST

Thursday, May 31, 2007 ( 9:08 PM )

Common Tests Coming Really Soon...

=Jac=

Y am I in this state?

Tuesday, May 29, 2007 ( 12:39 AM )

I am really tired le,REALLY TIRED LE...

My family noe I am tired...
But I cant c that my dad is trying to lighten my burden,in fact,he's the one hu is adding my burden,cant he juz understand,y I am in this state now?

Can u imagine...

U r a normal poly student...
Holding 2 jobs, having 4 CCAs, have to cope with your studies, have to smile in front of everyone, cant really show your tiredness to frenz and family, have to help family financial prob, your own expenses...

I have already tried my best...

I am not here to ask ppl to understand me,but I really feel that this is the place I can say wat I feel abt...

Tt's all I feel...

Everyday came back hm ard 11.30pm, wake up at 6am or 6.30am daily...
Have to try to study,try to do tutorials,settle CCAs things...

I can cope with everything,but I c no motivation...

How I wish I can lie on my bed and slp for 8hrs...
It's simple,but I cant get it done...

End of month...
Bills to settle:

Handphone Bill-$28
Internet Broadband-$38
Bus Concession-$52
Necessities...ETC

How I wish I can dun work,really rest a day...

It's all "How I wish..."

Bye and Take care my frenz...

*I am sorry...
I am juz being emo bah...

=Jac=

Beyond Control...

Sunday, May 27, 2007 ( 1:47 PM )

Beyond Control huh?...

Somehow...

Juz feel that everything's beyond control sometimes...
Rest my mind,stop my daydream...=X

Dunno...
Recently gt nothing to blog abt oso...

Tt's how simple one's life can b,aint it?

Work,play,train,rest,we r the best...
[Nan Chiau High Sch-NPCC's slogan]

Life can b easy,up to u to c...
Normally we will be the one making our own life diff...

Dunno y lah,juz feel like crapping...

The feeling of being detest is juz still there...
No mood lah...
Only feel like "jian fei" and study well for exam...
*Pray*

Bye my frenz!
Take Care!=)

*Ambiguity is there... A vague premonition of disaster...

=Jac=

Hav my hair cut...

Saturday, May 26, 2007 ( 6:45 PM )

This morning I had my hair cut...

Eeeeee...
I dun like this new hair cut...
Not nice...
But bo bian,already cut liao...
Haiz...Leave it...
Nvm...

Wish Jian Ming an advance Happy Birthday...
Though cant attend u b'dae party...
Cant meet Liana oso...=/

Recently found many ppl ard me fall sick, colleagues, relatives, mum, dad and frenz...
Everyone pls take care!

Bye...

*Great minds think alike,but fools dun differ...=X

=Jac=

Packing my room...

( 12:54 AM )

LoL...

Now quite high...
Cos nvr slp since ytd...
It's normal lah...
Since I live so far...Then chiong proj till nvr slp...

Haha...
Well...
C how long I can tahan bah...

Today,my bro went to help my relatives to move hse,then I suddenly have the "kick" to like pack my room too...=)

Tmr gonna have hair cut...
Then will pack my room...
Then study,mayb...

Haha...LaLaLa....
Shall go to my LaLaLa Land le...
Bye...
Finally...Feel like watching my animeS !=)

Take care my frenz!

*If you r a leader,the outcome mayb impt,but most imptly is the respect and considerations among u n ur grp mates,aint it?

=Jac=

Back

Wednesday, May 23, 2007 ( 11:18 PM )

Back...

Today very sian...
I was late for lesson,ard an hr late...

I took bus 74 at ard 7am,by rite,I shld reach sch earlier...
Little do I noe...
The traffic jam was 45min more than wat I have anticipated...

I am suppose to present qns 1 for IFA Tutorial...
Yet I was late,and thus Ivy have to present her qns 2 first...
Sorry Ivy...
Then heng my turn to present was quite alrite,ans mostly correct...=)
Finally I noe how to do IFA tutorial liao...=X
Haha...

Juz after work...Still gt to chiong FIT proj...
Shant tok more,I go bath n slp bah,then wake up at ard 4am to chiong the proj bah...
I now really very tired...

Bye!
Take Care!=)

=Jac=

Finally

Sunday, May 20, 2007 ( 5:49 AM )

Wanna blog suddenly...

Cos I wan to tell everyone...

SORRY

I dunno y,I gt a strong feeling of being detested and that's y I din blog recently...

I noe clearly,c so clearly and I cant deny...

Unhappy with me,juz tell me,really,I'll feel better if you all tell me,I dun wan to guess...

All sufferings in the past had over,but the bad memories still stay with me,forever...
I suffered in the past,but now I was able to support myself,trying my best to earn more than enough to support myself with 2 jobs now...

I used to be average clever,then I actually have had high fever[41.3 degree celsius] n depression to make me wat I am today...[STUPID n DUMB]

It's all used to be...Wat abt now?-I dunno...

I am now being the liability of the group,being extra of the group,being stupid of the group...

MIA soon...Die in front of u all?-Mayb,y not?

=Jac=

Hi-Bye Frenz...

Wednesday, May 16, 2007 ( 9:48 PM )

Create your own Friend Test here

Why is life so tiring?-I am incapable and is a liability to you all...[I'm sorry]

I feel like MIA for awhile...

If you all wanna contact me,pls call,sms or email me...

=Jac=

Heavy Rain,My converse's wet...

( 12:23 AM )

15May…

Today early in the morning,rained heavily…
I love rainy day…

I woke up 4.30am,read frenz’ blogs,then bath,have my breakfast and leave hse at ard 6.45am…I reached the bus stop at ard 7am,I missed the bus and I knew I had to wait for another half an hr for the bus 161…

I used to bring umbrella with me,and today,I need it juz in tym…
Happily,I tot with umbrella I wun get wet and little do I noe…

My converse shoe got totally wet when I walked to the bus stop from my hse…
While waiting for bus 161,the rain was so heavy tt even though with jacket,umbrella,I still got wet!
The raindrops were not gentle,it’s devilish,SPLASHING like it nvr had b4,trying to make a hard tym for the people[only me at bus stop tt tym] waiting at the bus stop…

My jean,clothes,jacket,shoe,socks…all wet!
Heng,my lappy wasn’t…phew…=)

Then I waited half an hr for bus 161,finally it arrived,but,I am already wet like mad by the tym,even though the bus stop is juz a journey of ard 10min frm my hse.
I walked with my shoe n socks so wet that I feel tt as if I am walking on puddle of water…Can you imagine how wet it was? =/

Well…Finally arrived at Hougang Bus Interchange and I immediately went to “Cheers” to buy a pair of slipper[$3],cos I noe,with tt pair of wet shoe,I myself cant tahan the whole day…

As today is a long day for me when I have lessons and after lessons,I have proj meeting and I oso have to go Outram Park to collect my pay,I feel tt buying tt slipper was necessary bah…
Okok…

Finally wore the slipper and pack my wet shoe into my bag,den I feel tt my bag was very heavy lor…Hmm…
Watever liao lah,heck care…

Was 20min late for lesson due to traffic jam...
Today’s lesson were still quite okay and everything’s fine…=)

Hope tmr will be a better day…
*Rain more pls,but not this kind of heavy rain pls…=)

Hope I can get my pay asap,so that I can help my parents to pay my brother’s operation fees and his transport concession…
[He is going to be 17 this yr and he’s still a student,not working,tt’s y,I feel that I shld at least do something to help out the household…]

Then after today’s lesson,went to have FIT proj meeting,then Yuan Qin and I went to ZhenJie’s hse to play mahjong…LoL…
I lost…LoL…
Heng,we are playing chips only…=)

Then YuanQin’s other gal frenz came and meet her,and after we played the last game,YuanQin,her frenz and me went to Lot1 to have dinner at her mum’s store…
Very nice to eat!=)
We did pay money ok…LoL…But very cheap…hee…=X

Then went hm,then promise my parents to help them to apply for the GST offset thing tmr…Now shall go n so my tutorial for COST and IFA…

Eeeeee…I dunno how to do IFA and I am EXTREMELY WEAK at it…=(
Sian…=/

Bye my frenz!
Take Care! =)
*Feel tt my hair is really long now,shall go n have a new haircut soon...=)

=Jac=

It juz feel diff...

Tuesday, May 15, 2007 ( 4:53 AM )

It juz feel diff...

Normally wat we feel and thru diff means of expressing our feelings, convey another meaning to the others and people tends to interpret it differently...

I feel neglected at tym...
When in class or in some of my CCAs...
The feeling of neglect doesnt juz came abt...
It's the strong feeling,thru how others treat me and the more I am trying to get into them,the more I feel myself as an EXTRA...

Yes,being extra...
Think in the good way:You r being special,limelight of all...
Opp: You r juz getting in the way and going to no where,pls move aside for others...

I normally gt the 2nd feeling...
And tt's how I feel...

We noe how to console ppl using nice words,but deep inside my heart,I dun trust any of them at all...
But perhaps,exceptional case for some...
When we are low,our thinking will b totally diff from our usual self,all perspections may altered...etc
But if 1 is pessimistic,he/she wun think of words to console themselves and tt's when frenz sets in...

I dun really noe wat is true frenz and how to be a good fren,but as till now,I recognize Xiu Juan as my best fren n one tt I can trust in my pri sch and even till now, Cindy as a fren tt I trust since in sec sch and since poly-Ivy...

Hi-Bye Frenz,beautiful sceneries,yet my presence spoiled the pic...

Haiz...
Enough for my crapping today...=)

*Feel good to be alone,no one ka jiao and can do watever I like...

I slp at 11.30pm ytd...Then woke up at 4.30am to read ppl's blogs n to write my blog...
Haha...
I actually slp b4 12am...[Tim & YuChin,I kept my promise...]

Bye everyone!
*P.S. Sorry Rose,I was already in my dreamland when u sms me to go online for group discussion...=/

Understanding is wat we need,not assumptions...

=Jac=

Mothers' Day

Sunday, May 13, 2007 ( 11:25 PM )

Today is Mothers' Day...
I gave her ang bao nia...

Cos I gt to work...

Today I ate Mosburger[$3.70,Teriyaki Chicken,it's rice instead of bun de burger...] for lunch and Mac Chicken[$4] for dinner and Hor Fan for supper...
I am a big eater...
Now very fat liao...=/

Today Yuchin gt come n pay me a visit since she oso work there...
LoL...
Happy to c her...=)

I today quite tired...
I stood the whole 10hrs...
Was tired till I accidentally toppled the Anlene milk samplings on my hand and make a mess out of it...
Haiz...

But I am very happy during the 2days of work...
Reasons are that:
1) High pay rate to me...
2) I met 2 Hearing Impaired customers
3) I make new friends and that all of them are from NTU and 2 of them noe SIGN LANGUAGE!!!-I of of them even went to SADEAF to learn sign language de!!!=)

*But abit sad...cos they are under diff company and I forgt to ask for their numbers...=/

Then after work,I went hm and starts proj discussion...
Now editing the proj...
Hopefully can finish it asap...

Gtg now...
Tmr will attend the HI Club lesson...
Gt proj meeting in the morning 9am too...
Bye...

Take Care & Nitez! =)

=Jac=

Happy Mothers' Day...

Saturday, May 12, 2007 ( 11:14 PM )

Haha...
Fun today!=)

Woke up at 9am,went to Bishan Junction 8 to work as Anlene promoter today...
It was outside the Mac,beside the ATM...
I this tym round is not work as operator,but promoter...
My job is to like u all test sampling...[Anlene Milk]
Saw Vanessa,and a guy hu is oso from NP Accountancy,same lecture as me de,then and also a lecturer at J8 sia...
Then oso saw "Ling Zhi" of ex FM93.3 station de...
Oso saw the dunno hu,from Jue Dui SuperStar de guy and oso the one hu host in Kid Central de guy...
In total,I saw 3 celebrities, a lecturer and 2 frenz...=)

Cant tahan some AUNTIE with their CHILDREN...
Drink the milk for life,like nvr drink milk b4 like tt,n I muz really say...

THEY VERY,NO,IT'S EXTREMELY THICK SKIN!!!
Even if I stand in front of dispenser,they still help themselves and drink as much as they can...
Diao lor...
Forgt it lah...
Tmr still gt one day then my job are done...

Today reached there at 10am,work till 8.30 pm,but was charge till 8pm nia...
Anw,still 10hrs,already very good liao...
At least I can recover the lost of the $42 from ytd...

I today ate Subway for lunch...-Ham and cheese,with Honey Oat bread...[$3.95]
Then my dinner I ate KFC's Zigger Burger,student meal...[$3.95]
Then after work hor,I intend to takeaway fo my bro cos I think today Sat,he will be eating out again,then I called him,but he told me he's going to my Grandma's new hse to celebrate Mothers' Day,then I say I go over there lor...

I took bus 55 to my grandma hse,when I reached there,it's already 9plus 10pm...
My relatives all went hm after I reached there a while...
My grandma asked me to eat...
Then I eat again...
2 slices of seafood supreme pizza,specially reserved for me,my cousins they all save for me de...=)
Then 4 drumlets...
Then rice with the crab...
Haha...

Damn full lor...
Then my aunt fetch me n bro hm...
But...
She say she wan to go c her new hse,so we go c her new hse first...
Then hor...

Dunno how,she link her new hse,to my rm...
Then she starts shooting me...
Say my mum nvr teach me how to pack my rm,other ppl go into my rm will feel tt it's like rubbish bin,all my stuffs are junks,tt's y my room r so small and she dun like my rm...
I feel like qns-ing her,"is it ur rm or mine?U feel tt it's messy and not of ur style,so? It's my fault but y pull my mum down?"

My mum n dad also have to work today,thus they nvr go down for the celebration too...
I really dun like her...
But...
Guess wat...
I only FEEL LIKE QNS-ING my aunt and FEEL LIKE TALKING BACK TO HER,in the end,I din...

I only answered,"Ya lor,[then I turned to my cousin-her daughter] Phyllis,I am a model for u,nxt tym dun learn from me k...Muz c me as example of messy and learn to b neat..."

My aunt then add on,"ya,dun b like her,if not I will throw all ur things...etc"
Then I keep,"yes...ya ya ya...orh orh orh..."
Then after that,she gt nothing to say,then dunno how,she links to my studies then ask me abt my course-Accountancy,then she comment abt it,but oso gt teach me some terms they use lah...
She's oso an accountant...
Her company used the software-SAP[Standard Account Processing]--Something like tt...=)

Overall,I still think today a nice day...
I now going to 7-11...
Gonna give my mum "AngBao" for mothers' day,cos we usually like tt de...
Last tym, think dunno from wat age,I think my primary sch,I already use my savings to give my dad n mum angbao for their b'dae,mothers' day,fathers' day,and oso my brother's b'dae...

I am always the one treating them...
They nvr celebrate my b'dae...
But I oso dun wan,waste money only...
N most of the tym,I will be working on my b'dae...

Hee...
Gtg...
Tmr still need to work 9am...
Now go 7-11 continue eat!

Diao...
At this rate,no longer soonner,I will become OBESE instead of FAT[now is fat]...

Bye!=)

=Jac=

Being Con By Ctm for $42...

( 12:36 AM )

Haiz...

I think there is nothing worse than to give birth to me le...
I am toopid and blur and everything's juz bad...

Today after sch went to work...
My cousin and her husband came down and visit me wor...
She even bought me 2 bbq chicken wings...
So sweet of her...
Thks her lots!- Vivian
Today really gt many customers...
No tym to take my dinner oso,muz thks Vivian,if not,I think I cant even eat lor...
That tym I am still working and serving ctm...

After they pay me a visit...
Haiz...
I am really frustrated!

Cos...
I was con by customer,a gal n a guy...
They intend to use 3 vouchers to offset the cakes and kuehs they want...
The 3 vouchers cost $13.80 each...
Total will be ard $42...

I served them and help them to take the kuehs,cakes they want...
I am waiting for them to pass me the vouchers...
They dilly dally,then the other ctm asked me to serve them,tt tym Bengawan Solo was really crowded...
Another auntie was bz with all the paper works...
Then still gt another auntie lor,she's new,I need to train n guide her,need to help her and so to serve all the ctm...

Then...The 3 of us working,but only like one bao ka liao,do everything...
The ctm ran away with their things,without passing the vouchers to me...
Thus,I have to pay everything!
$42...
There goes my 10hrs of work...[My pay is $4.30per hr...]

I still intend to surprise my mum to buy a cake for her...
Cos for the past 17yrs,she dun wan anything and we dun have the practices to celebrate festival other than CNY...
Then I this yr specially want to celebrate for her de...

Haiz...
I shant say more...
I careless cum stupid lor...
Haiz...

I still gt to work as Anlene promoter tmr and Sun,10am-8pm at Junction 8...

I go and take my dinner liao...
Bye...=/

=Jac=

BA Envoy RD'2007

Friday, May 11, 2007 ( 1:26 AM )

Haha...

Saw my drawings being put up at Canteen 1's BA Envoys RD Booth...
If you all are interested to join,pls come n register with us!=)

Haha...
No doubt,the hand[palm] u all c at the canteen 1 booth was drawn by me,shadding...
Then after tt,Arthur use software to edit it...
Haha...
Then the banner you all c at outside LT73 was done by me n ChoyTing!=)

Haha...
Hope everything will b smooth tmr...
Tmr will be the last day of RD for BA Envoys,anyone interested,pls come over and take a look!=)

K...
Ytd,I stay up till 4am to read my lecture notes,intend to do my tutorial after reading the notes,who noes,I dozed off...
Then I woke up at 6.30am,I realised tt I did not shut down my lappy and it auto shut down sia...
Nvr do my tut...
But when I reached tutorial class,surprisingly,I actually can ans wat was asked by my tutor...
Wooosh...Heng...

Then after lesson,go for lecture,dozed off during Taxation lecture...
Then hor,after lecture ends,went to help out BA Envoys RD Booth,then went for IFA lecture,dozed off again...
Haiz...

Sian...
Then went for HI Club Lesson,teaching students...
Feel weird,but oso fun...
First tym trying to teach ppl to sign[hand sign,sign language]...LoL...
Everything was quite messy as there were many ppl keep walking in and out the class,keep having students from other class de to join my & Jerome's class,originally gt 19students,then...

We end up having 25-26 students...
Haha...
Sign language was suddenly so popular or at least I feel that it was more popular/crowded compare to my batch...
Hah...

The students choose the song "I'm All About You" by Aaron Carter,this will b the song they are going to sign for their closing ceremony[when they finished their 8 lessons]...

After the lesson,I went to eat with the other classes' instructors at KAP Mac...
Eating Mac again...
I am getting fatter n fatter n fatter...

Diao...
Haiz...
Who ask me to be so "tan chi" lor...=/

Then reached hm at ard 12am...

K,gtg...
Gt to do my Taxation tutorial liao...
Tmr still gt to work till 10.30pm,will reach hm at ard 11plus pm...
Haiz...
Sian...

K...
Take Care my Frenz!=)
Jia you!
Anything wanna me to help can juz tell me,I will try my best to help...

=Jac=

Bla bla bla...

Thursday, May 10, 2007 ( 12:22 AM )

Bla bla bla...

Too many things I wan to share with u all...
Happy,Sad,Angry,and everything!
But now I muz say I am not being a good student and keep tiring myself out...

I shld have maintain the self discipline I used to hav in the past...
I cant...

Haiz...
*My daily lifestyle for recently...
Working on Tue,Wed,Fri,Sat and Sun...all till 10.30pm and will reach hm at ard 11.30pm de...
Having HI Club on every Mon n Thur,will go n hav dinner with the instructors and by the tym I reach hm will oso be 12am cos I lived very far from sch...
Basically,everyday,after lessons,I will hav things going on...
I muz admit I am not a good student and I really envy Rose...

Rose can cope with her job,many CCAs,tutorials,lessons...etc
Basically,I feel so inferior,weak as compared to her...
Haiz...
I muz quickly adjust myself to the rite one,like wat Ivy said...
Thks Ivy,for making me feel that I still gt frenz who are care n concern n b there for u de...
==================
Singing made me happy...
Eating made me happy...
When I am tired,I mean really tired till I am very quiet,ppl's jokes or nonsenses made me feel that they are irritating/annoying...

Tt's y,I normally choose to keep quiet even feel unhappy or sad or wat so ever...

Cos,I realised...
Being silent might be the best way to hide urself from the others...

There are incidents to make myself believe tt being silent may b the best way not to bother abt other ppl and not to hurt myself...

Silent...

I will learn to get back my usual life[past,disciplined and cheerful me]...
I will learn to keep quiet...
I will learn to improve more by listen more than to tok more...
Think more than to dream more...

Tt's all I wan to share with you all today...
I now go do my FIT tutorial liao...

Take Care everyone!=)
Jia you!

=Jac=

My fault...

Tuesday, May 08, 2007 ( 11:51 PM )

Today was late for lesson cos of traffic jam...

Really hate it...
Always set off early but end up late for lectures n tutorials...

Hmm...
Nxt tym I shall set off even earlier liao!

K,today after tutorial,lesson ends 1pm and gt not more lesson liao...
Went to eat with HuiJun,Caroline,CaiQuan,WeiJun n ZhenJie...
After eating,cos I will have to leave at 2.30pm to reach my work place on tym,then I still gt tym to spare,so I watched the 3 guys playing basketball...

Hmm...
They played quite fine...
Cos I hav gt a basketball expert at hm...[My brother]
Thus,I feel tt they are playing fine...
Hee...=X

I used to c ppl play basketball,cos my bro,cousins n their frenz all gt play basketball de,thus,know abit of basketball n their stun...
Some stuns are very nice de lor...
LoL...=)

Well...
I leave when the 3 guys starts to play "man jiang"...
LoL...

Then today I work hor...
I think I am too tired till I give the ctm wrong change...
I suppose to give her $8,but I gave her only $3...
She argued with me,then I gave her money back,then my manager close the register shift then find out tt I really gave her wrong change juz now,lucky gt pay her back...
But still feel bad cos I gt give her tt face,"u sure u gave me $10?"...
I mean I doubt her words,gave her the "huh" look lor...

Not good hor...
LoL...
Sorry...

I help YuChin to order a 500g black forest cake,paid on her behalf first,after my staff discount[15%],the cake costed,"$15.10"...Hehe...
Original price $17.80...LoL...

Back hm at ard 11.30pm today after work...
Tried to do proj...
Couldnt use the factiva to find article leh...[For my BLAW Proj]
Lecturer say can but I cant leh...
My frenz all oso try liao,but cant...

Well...
Sian...
Now trying some way out...Hmm...
Shall tok to u all tmr...

Bz...
Gt a lot of stuff to do...

Bye and take care my frenz!=)

=Jac=

HI Club Lesson commence

Monday, May 07, 2007 ( 11:39 PM )

HI Club Lesson Commence today...

Well...
Not tt bad...

I today slp only 2hrs for the whole day...
Though tired,but zi high to keep myself awake...

I slp for ard 1 hr in ISP lesson,tutor oso saw me,she allowed lo,cos my grp done had already got most things done and we gt nothing much to do oso...

Sian...
Then I did HI Club Recruitment Drive Publicity list out...
Need to type n email to ppl...
Need to get contacts from ShengLong[Updated Class list]...
Today after HI Club,went to Bukit Timah n eat with the instructors,then go off at ard 10pm...
Then took bus 52 to Bishan,then took 156 hm...
When board bus 156,saw Steph & her bf,she I gt the "fried oil smell"...

Watever...I was juz being tired and I slept till I reach the bus stop tt I was supposed to alight,I suddenly wake up and immediately walk down the bus...

Diao...
Well...
Now reached hm,gt alot of things to do but I dun wan to care le...

I wan to slp le...
Leave everything tmr! [Though it's not good...]

Sian lah...
*Tons of things are waiting for me to do,yet I cant push myself to do...
I am juz myself,I am not duplicate of another ppl,not others...

Take Care!
Bye!
Nitez!
*First tym so early go to bed liao...=)

=Jac=

My grandpa was hospitalized...

( 5:18 AM )

My grandpa was hospitalized on the 3rd May...

Then wasnt free to pay him a visit due to sch n CCAs...
I noe I am bad...
Then for Sat n Sun I have to work from morning 11am-10.30pm...
Also gt no tym to pay him a visit...

I am bad hor,ya,I think so too...
Well...
My colleague's husband was hospitalized too,then I was forced to work on Sat n Sun...

But I heard my grandpa had the operation n was fine...
Shld b able to discharge on Wed...
I really hope he's fine n wanna go c him de...=/

I today came hm from work[ard 11.30pm] n chiong the ISP ppt[my part only]...
Then sent to Ivy...
Then help Ivan do the draft HI Club Calendar for Passion Synergy...
Then do the FIT quiz...

Juz till now then I took a break n blog...
Gonna meet Ivy,Huimin,Caroline in sch,ltr 9am...
Cant slp le...

Now is abt 6am...
Btw,recently I only slp for abt 6hrs each day n today din slp at all...

Hmm...
Ltr go sch meet for grp proj le,then go for lesson till 5pm,then got to go for HI Club lesson,then gt to discuss with ShengLong abt HI Club's RD Publicity...
Then can only go hm aat ard 10pm [cos may go have dinner with the instructors]...

Will reach hm at ard 12am...
Then I still have gt tons of tutorial haven do...

I oso forgt to do the ISP e-debate during the e-learning week,it's already over...die...
Tutor will scold me ltr bah...[Having ISP lesson ltr,from 1pm-5pm]

I was also late for Biz Law's quiz,but I've posted it...Hoped it was still acceptable...
I was late for Biz Law cos I lent my notes to Yuan Qin,then my tutorial was oso with the notes n thus...my ans is oso there...

Haiz...
Still my fault,shld have remind her to return me by Sun or wat de...
Haiz...
It's over le...
Very slack hor me?
Ya...[Nod]

My brother oso went for his operation at week,then he now a bit better le,but still cant eat like us normally ppl...
Haiz...So suay recently...

Grandpa n bro went for operation,I keep cutting myself[fingers],n being so slack n w/o motivation to move...

Hope tmr will b a better day...

Hope tt ltr's HI Club lesson will b a smooth one...*Pray*

Jia you everyone!=)
Gonna prepare to go sch le...
Gambate desu...

*Die,I haven do the CCA Fiesta report to submit to Ms Leong...
Laptop caught virus,went to reformat it,the file was lost...Haven re-do...Siao liao...
Gt so many things to settle...

Lao tian,qing bo you wo!

=Jac=

R u a Hi-bye fren?

( 5:18 AM )

Create your own Friend Test here

=Jac=

Curse...

Sunday, May 06, 2007 ( 12:58 AM )

Dunno y...

Recently so suay...[It's like a curse tt have put on me...]
Today went to work,from 11am till 10.30pm...
I cut myself,accidentally...

My rite thumb n my left hand's fourth finger kana cut...
Sian...
Pain...
Recently eat lot...
Like hungry ghost like tt...=X
Having ard 5 meals a day...[HUH!!!]
LoL...

Haiz...
Grown fatter n fatter...
Shall go n think of sliming methods...
Diao...

Okok...
I realised tt I have neglected my studies n many things other than work n HI Club...
Hmm...

Gt to do my stuff le...
Tok to u all tmr!

Take Care my frenz!=)

*TingHwee...Parents and family have diff way to express their love n concern to us...
We shall try to learn to put ourselves in their shoe to c things...
U may think it's unfair for them to treat u in this manner,but I believe,they are still ur family,u cant choose n mayb life's juz like tt...
Cos my family oso sort of like tt de...=)

看开一点，日子会好过一点。。。=）

=Jac=

HI Club Orientation

Saturday, May 05, 2007 ( 12:53 AM )

HI Club Orientation 2007...

Haha...
For my performance part,I keep signing wrongly n slower than the others...
Sian...

Well...
Forget it,I cant do anything to the past...

I recently slp thru lectures,slp on bus,nvr do tutorial...
My slp timings are wrong...
Causing me to b so wrong...
Not myself...

Haha...
Be cheerful everyone!
Today's HI Club Orientation is quite ok...
But I feel tt there is a very important point tt we muz all learn...

Be Organised...
Be well planned...
I've learnt a quote from a lecturer...
"Those who fail to plan,plan to fail..."

Then I think the orientation today is still quite alrite,not tt bad...
But,I think it can still b improved...=)

First, get all helpers/instructors updated on their duties and wat they shld do,n update them the programs going on...
Best is to do a proposal and send them before event held or to give them a briefing before event starts...

2nd,for those who are performing,muz not assume ppl gt the song that you are performing...
Try to backup by bringing the song u r performing...[To prevent things cork up]...

Thirdly, no matter wat, since everything have to b carry on, helpers muz support their organiser and be punctual,no matter who's the one...

Lastly, whether the result is good or bad... Wat ever is done cant change, we can make mistakes and learn from one another, we learn to praise ppl's hard work/effort they put in no matter what the outcome may turn out to...=)

We learn to appreciate ppl's effort...=)
Jia you HI Club!=)
Gambate!!!

Hee...
I got to work tmr morning 11am till 10.30pm...
Will b a tiring day...

*Growing fatter n fatter...
Cos most of the time keep eating junk food,fast food n supper...
Hmm...No wonder I am this size rite?=X
Haha...

K...
Take Care all my frenz!=)
Hang on there!=)

Bye,nitez!
* Special thks to TingHwee & her BF,KaiYun,WeiMing and Jian Ming for coming down specially for the orientation...
Nevertheless,10Q to all helpers,instructors and students!=)

=Jac=

BA Comm

Thursday, May 03, 2007 ( 10:41 PM )

BA Comm RD today...

I sang today...
Wasnt as good as expected...
No one notice my singing oso...
Focus on my partner more bah...
Kwek Gek...

Haha...
Indeed,she sang better than me...
Personally feel tt she shld solo...
I only dragging her down...
Well...

Haha...
Heng today not much ppl at Atrium...
Ard 1pm plus...
Haha...

Thanks Ivy for her support!=)
Thks for everyone's effort and to tolerate my voice...

Hmm...
Recently gt alot of prob...

My bro went for tooth operation ytd...
Cos his tooth gt prob,then go for operation...
Now he cant eat anything and his left side of his cheek is swollen...
Poor thing...
Then hor,I heard he suffered 8 injections...
Total operation fee was ard $700 plus...
A burden...
Haiz...

Well,k...
Now today,my grandpa fall down as he rode his motorbike...
Then hor,he was in Tan Tock Seng Hospital...
Shall pay him a visit tmr,cos I only noe this news when I came back from sch,after HI Club orientation performance rehearsal...

I gt alot of things to settle...
I am quite tired,frankly speaking...
I noe there are more ppl out there suffered more than me,but I juz feel tired...=/

Haha...
Well...
Gonna do my stuff le...
Gtg...
Bye!=)
Take Care my frenz!

*Hope everything will b fine tomorrow,especially the HI Club orientation...
N oso BA Comm's RD,I will b helping out tmr...At the registration booth...

=Jac=

Slp enough

( 12:55 AM )

I tot I ytd slp quite early,suppose to have more energy...

But...
I am more tired than usual...=/
I din do tutorial...
Stupid me,ytd dunno y,felt very stessed up and tired...
Thousands of things running thru my mind...

Hmm...
Today woke up late,n was raining heavily...
I took MRT instead of bus today...
Cos I am thinking,trying to c if I can be not tt late as I think MRT will b faster than bus on a rainny day,no traffice jam...

Then,Haha...I was rite,I was early today even though I woke up at 7.30am for 9am lesson...
Haha...

Dunno y,juz very tired juz now,frustrated and bothered by some things...
My self prob...
I noe I cant do up to my own expectation...
N my own expectation is very low liao...
The basic things tt I cant even manage...

I am slacking recently,since sch reopen...
I dunno wat to do...
That y may b it's the reason I feel so troubled...

Then I today really too tired tt I slp thru the whole 2hrs BLAW lecture...
I sit at the 4th row...

Then after lecture,when for HI Club Refresher Course...
Till ard 10pm then go hm...

Wanna apologize to ppl who worried abt me...
Sorry...
Promise wun let u all worry again...=)

Well,I was informed that tmr my tutor on MC,so I dun hav to wake up so early for lesson...
Haha...

Take Care my frenz!=)
Nitez!

=Jac=

Committing suicide...

Wednesday, May 02, 2007 ( 1:52 AM )

I wan to commit suicide...

Cant stop myself thinking bad things...
Low self-esteem n cant stop the tears rolling down my cheeks...
I really have the feeling tt I am a failure,useless...

Juz these pessimistic thinking make me feel so stress and messed up everything I did...
I shld hav kill myself yrs back...
I want to die!

All these thinking juz went thru my mind every night...
I went thru the mental suffering every night...

Really hope my frenz can take care of themselves,dun end up like me!
Pls bear with me...

Ppl with low self-esteem [Me], think low abt themselves...
Easily hurt by wat ppl do or say...=/

I may say something you all not agree,but tt's how I feel/think...

Take Care!
Night!=)

=Jac=

I hate myself

Tuesday, May 01, 2007 ( 4:12 AM )

I hate myself...

Not at least a good point for myself...
Haiz...
Well...

Nvm...

Btw...
Wanna say today is tt...

I worked today,then I helped auntie to buy dinner,then while waiting for the food to b ready,I went to a shop near it to look at the vcd/dvd...

Then...
Suddenly a guy went up to me...

He asked...
"Do u hav ....vcd/dvd here huh?U all placed it where huh?"

I was like: Huh?!
I replied,"Erm,I dun work here..."
The man was like paiseh,"Oh,sorry..."
Then he still look at my attire lor,gt Bengawan Solo logo de polo tee lor...
Then quickly walked away...

Diao...

Haha...
Well,now no mood to study,as in no mood to study this sem...='(
Feel like crying...T_T

I today opened my cupboard and found my "Best in Conduct" award,I gt it in my primary school times...
Haha...

Have good memories back in the past-my pri sch life...=)

Well,I go slp le...
Take Care my frenz!=)
Nitez!

=Jac=