Lets forget the negatives!

Sick of Life man

Monday, November 27, 2006 ( 11:20 PM )

Sick of life...

Sian sian sian...
I am very tired...Though slp alot,but still very tired...Dunno y...

Haiz...Exams coming soon...Still need to work...Still need to study oso...
Haiz...Really hope tt I can pass this sem...

RED Camp is coming...Hope everything will go smoothly on this Thur,Fri & Sat...
ECO Camp is oso nearing...On this Sat...LoL...Hope nothing goes wrong...

LoL...My HI Club gt song signing...I haven go learn yet...Sian...

Aiyo,ah Jac ah...U very lazy lei,haven go study...hmmm...No gd girl liao hor...

OMG...okok...I will go study de...I promise,I wun go back on my words...

I am sorry to Marvin...I din manage to send him the logo on time...Haiz...I bad girl...Haiz...

Good bye my frenz...Nitez...Take Care... =)

=Jac=

OMG...Study...

Sunday, November 26, 2006 ( 11:24 PM )

OMG...Gt loads of things to do...
I'm gonna faint...

IAC,LMS...
Art...

WTH...Y gt many things haven do huh Jac...U lazy...
Haiz...I am juz too tired...Need to work n CCA n studies...OMG...I am off track sia...

Muz buck up n study now...
Motivate me my frenz...

Die...I dun wanna fail my test...

Bye my frenz...

=Jac=

Drawings...

Saturday, November 25, 2006 ( 3:15 PM )

I love drawings,publicity...Juz tt...

I do not like the feeling of being "used by" ppl,or the feeling like ppl push their responsibilities & job scope to me...

Haiz...I like drawing but I cant draw nicely de,I need tym n mood to draw...
Sian hor...

Nvm...Now tok abt my laptop again...My lappy gone crazy le...
My BA Comm Logo files disappeared!!!
OMG...I need to draw again...Hope Marvin wun scold me...

Haiz...Many proj going on recently...Too many things are running in my brain now...
I shan waste my tym le...Now gonna start on my tutorials,proj...etc le...

Bye Everyone...Nice to know u all...

=Jac=

Thursday, November 23, 2006 ( 1:06 AM )

Tt tym all of us at Clementi Mac,discussing BCA PBL...
Aiyo, YK & ZJ act cute sia...LoL...Cute hor...Haha...

Wah...2 sisters...

Diao...2 Brothers...

Wat am I doing tt tym huh?

=Jac=

( 12:55 AM )

Haha...From Left,HuiJun[in blue],Stephanie[in white & black],WeiJun,CaiQuan,Caroline & LiLing...

=Jac=

Everybody's changing...

( 12:49 AM )

Everybody's changing...

Is it that everyone's changing or am I the only one hu changed or only one tt din change...
Dun understand...but they feels so far, so strange, so unfamiliar, so...
Not the same feeling as b4...

Quote: The only that remains constant is changes...

Dun u agree?

Nvm...

I am tired...Tired...Haiz...
Have yet to reformat my lappy yet, now can use,but very lag...
Haiz...Cos I she bu de my songs...LoL...Hu gt Hard disk or very huge size thumb drive?Can lend me?
LoL...

Exam is coming...I need to buck up le...Jia you my frenz...

=Jac=

Bad Day

Tuesday, November 21, 2006 ( 1:03 AM )

I woke up at 6am...
Reached school at 8.45am...
Brought the mic stand down from 72-07-02 to outside LT 73...
Start lesson at 9am...
End lesson at 3plus pm...
Printing notes at level 5,wait n print till 4plus pm...
Print the BA StageWerkz thing...
Do BA StageWerkz thing till ard 6pm...
Went for RED Camp meeting...
Then went back to do BA StageWerkz thing...
Leave school at ard 10.20pm...
Reached Hougang Bus Interchange at ard 11.30pm...
Reached home at ard 12am...

I am tired...
Thks Chun Hui [Rose] alot today...
I today consumed only 2 cans of Nescafe coffee,a tuna sushi,a bottle of green tea[half bah,cos ZJ],a slice of Pandan ciffon cake,a can of 100plus,2 slice of pizza n chewy gums...
I wanna thks her becos she's the one who bought me the cake,cos she knew I only ate a sushi for the whole morning till afternoon ard 2pm...
10Q Rose!!! Love her most...Touched sia...

Rose had taught me something today:
If u made the choice,then juz do ur best in it,if u hesitated on ur choice or u cant cope with it,u might as well quit it...

True true...I agreed...
Nitez my frenz...

=Jac=

I am so SUAY

Saturday, November 18, 2006 ( 12:16 AM )

OMG...

My laptop...
It was still working perfectly fine on Wednesday nite...

On the morning of Thur,I went for my BMGT tutorial,I opened my laptop,OMG,things happened...
The laptop settings,background,my username,passwords,my emoticons,my cursor,my "favorite links", some files n folders r gone!!! I cant even use the internet!!!
I oso cant connect to NP net!!!
OMG...I am really sian...
I am so tired both physically n mentally...

My songs oso gone...
I am extremely sad...
I dunno wat to do...
I went to help desk...
The uncles there oso cant help me,they only help me create another account in my laptop for me to use...But things are all different!!! I dun wan!!! I wan my back my original de!!!
WTH...

I dunno wat to do...I need to work,n still gt CCAs waiting for me...
Can u tell me wat to do?
Anyone oso had the same situation as mine?
I rmb on Wed nite,the last thing I did is the "Symantec Antivirus" full scan...Then...the nxt day it ended up like tt...All my internet link oso gone,I cant even go to my favorite site,cos I dunno,dun have the link...WTH...
Haiz...Suay...

Then till now,my laptop problem is still unresolved...Haiz...
I not free recently,will send it to Jurong Acer to service it bah...*Cry*
Thus,as u all noe,I am really in bad mood...

I am sorry to Wen Si on Friday,when we were having BMGT lecture...
The lecturer gave us a break of ard 10min...
I used it for slping...Then Wen Si came n wake me up,wanna tok to me...But I think...
I said to her,"Aiya,dun kajiao me can,not?"

Then I think she went back to her seat bah...I am sorry but I am really tired...Need the slp very very very very...EXTREMELY MUCH!!!

Well,I am really sorry...

Then after my "slp"...
Get back to lecture...

There again I think becos I am too too too tired,I did something I think I would not do usually...
I actually embarassed the Lecturer...
I dunno his name,but I think his STUPID JOKES TT ONLY HE HIMSELF IS INTERESTED are really super annoying n irritating to me...
I need to work lo,I think at his rate of toking,explaining the slides n his "jokes" [Crap],I will be late for work de...

He shld end and he ended his lesson at 5pm...All becos of me!!!
If not of me,I think he will end his lesson at ard 6pm bah...

He was teaching,while he teach,he tok his crap...
then dunno how,he tok till "I went back to sch on Sunday at ard 3pm to work..."

While he tok to there...
I turned my head n look at the back...
All the others r all doing their own things...
N I...
I raised my hand,left hand,straight rite up,in the middle of the air...[I sit at the fourth row...]
The lecturer immediately noticed me...
He stopped toking n looked at me...
He said,"Yes?"

I replied,"Teacher,can u pls get back to the lesson?"

Oh o...I nvr expect myself to do such thing...
But then I did...
The nxt thing I heard was from Rose[ChunHui],"Wah,Jaclyn I love u sia..."

Diao...
The lecturer stunned!!!

He paused for a few seconds n answered, "oh,ok"

He went back to his laptop n pressed for the nxt slide...
He then came back to his tot bah,He suddenly asked me my name,my surname,hu is my tutor n class...etc

I told him honestly...

Now then I think back...I think I very bad sia...
Haiz...Not enough slp is like tt de...

I am sorry...
But...Cant help it...
Watever done couldnt be amend...

Aiya...Heck care lah...

Night my frenz...

=Jac=

I dun like ppl who dun reply

Wednesday, November 15, 2006 ( 7:05 PM )

I love rainy days

Yay...Finally,BA Envoys "Post-it" thing was done...
I still feels tt something can do to it to improve it,but due to time constraint,forget it lo...

I dun like the feeling to be left out...But I love to be alone...(Contradicting...)
I dun like ppl who borrowed my things n nvr return...(My CD...etc)
I dun like ppl who dun reply my mails,msgs or calls...But wat can I do?Haha...
Let them be...Muhahaha...

Ytd only Choy & me do the post it thing...
I dun like ppl to be irresponsible,n now I noe,I shld be like them,so they can noe how it feels...

Today my IAC tutor ask me n Wen Si to help him to gather info on HI(Hearing Impaired) Organisation,he wanna to ask the Hearing Impaired to visit their "role model" ard the world,he wanted to start an organisation bah...LoL...

Tmr gt HI Club,Intermediate Lesson...LoL...Looking forward to it...

Finally,I think I can take a gd rest,but I was wrong...
More things waiting for me to settle...Haiz...

I wanna say sorry to everyone out there,I really not in good mood recently...
I wanna thks those who helped me along,thk u all...

Now I noe,really,I am not important...
Mayb I am lack of self-confidence,low self-esteem,but this is how I truly feels,everyone is better than me,I am not comparing,but it's the fact...

I had been like tt...(Pessimistic)
I rmb I was very cheerful & optimistic when young de,dunno when,I became pessimistic...

I need to go to hospital...I need to take blood test...etc
But I haven make an appt yet...
Will have to decide soon on the date to visit the nurse...(TTSH)
Sian...

*I will treasure all my frenz...

=Jac=

Tired...

Tuesday, November 14, 2006 ( 12:51 AM )

Haha...

During the weekend [Working as Anlene Bone Scan Operator at Vivo City],I drank the White n Red wine from France wor...
The promoter let me try de,she noe I'm not 18...Haha...
I think she let me drink becos I give her alot of Anlene Milk sample bah...
LoL...

I like the White better than the Red...Taste nicer...
Muhahaha...

Kk...Today very suay,I gt myself cut by the scotch tape blade again...Wat de...
Sian...
Haiz...
Nvm...I think today I dun nid to slp le...
Gt lots of things to do man...
Haiz...Sian...

Gt BCA,LMS,IAC,BA Comm Logo,ERS Recruitment Drive board,BA Envoys' publicity...etc
Take my life man...
Gonna die...

Haiz...I hope I gt infinity hrs each day...Diao?Wat am I toking?
Wadever...
Anyway...

Still need to settle lots of things...GTG...
Bye my frenz...

Hope everyone was fine n happy...

* Do not reprimand the others when mistakes were made n couldn't be changed,accept n think of another plan is much more practical...

=Jac=

VivoCity

Sunday, November 12, 2006 ( 12:56 AM )

Ha...Went to VivoCity to work juz now & for tmr...

I overslept today...
Late for work...

Recently I juz keep making mistakes...
Ya...I am very tired,mayb...
Gt poor memory,gt poor management...etc
Wat can I do...
Everyone is bz,I am not?

Ya,I am very free
Very free

My mood is not very good,dun kajiao me,I think becos I am lack of slp bah...
Pls dun blame me...
A big Sorry to everyone...

My burden r getting heavier n heavier,not only studies,oso family n works...
Pls,I pray...
I am tired le,let me go bah,can?

Nitez everyone,I now really having bad headache,I still need to do BCA...
Think will slp soon...
Take care,nitez...Bye...

=Jac=

Publicity

Saturday, November 11, 2006 ( 12:25 AM )

I love rainy day...

I enjoyed most in HI Club...

Today ERS's Recruitment Drive's Board was 75% done lo...
Muz finish by Monday...

Today decided on the BA Envoys's Banner design,Poster design,Board design...
Tired...Haven had enough slp...Haha...
Will learn to do things step by step...

Supposingly today I should bring the styrofoam to the BA Stage Werkz AP in-charge de...
But I din...N oso I cant find thick de...I bought 2 thin de...
She was unhappy...
Since she din inform earlier,I oso wasnt updated on the latest news...
I oso had other things to do...How am I going to noe n find where to buy styrofoam?
I went to "Popular Bookstore",they only have thin de mah...

She asked me y I din tell her earlier,but she din update me with latest meeting details,how am I going to noe tt the styrofoam are not thick enough...

Haiz,watever,since she always reply late,I will treat her as "Role Model",do the same to her,y cant?
I noe it's childish,but I really wanted her to feel how we,under her,feels when she din reply to our sms...
Giving empty promises of sending n updateing us the latest info,not even a "Sorry" was said wor...
I heck care lo,since u like tt,cant blame me de mah...

Haiz,watever,I haven slp like for abt 2 days le,keep drinking cups of coffee to keep myself awake...I am not in any good mood,not having good memory too,so reply late not my fault lo...Haiz...

Kk...Need to go do BCA le...Bye my frenz,Nitez my frenz...

=Jac=

I am really tired le

Friday, November 10, 2006 ( 12:11 AM )

Cry,cry,cry...

I am really tired le...
If everyone were to leave me with everything,then I might as well quit...

I am really tired le...
I cant even slp well...
Everyday not even 5hrs of slp...
Pls...I dunno how long I can tahan...
okok...I understand everyone is very busy...I noe u all are very tired...

ok...Take it like I toking to myself can...A form of de-stress,at least...

Y I feel tt everyone is so diff from first sem?
Y everyone like changed into another person? Or...am I the only one who had changed?
I noe I haven change...
Y?

It's not like I dun wan to work,but like I bao ka liao like tt,if u were in my shoe,wat will u do?
a) Throw everything back to them,being irresponsible?
b) Do everything half way only?
c) Do everything then?

I dunno...

I am sick...Sick of all these...As if I am the only one working on everything...
Now...
I had to even cancel Thursday's doctor apointment at Tan Tock Seng Hospital...Y?
I had to postpone it...
N the nxt earliest date is 30th Jan 2007!
My illness can nvr be cured...That's wat the doctor said...I cant stop seeing him for the rest of my life...

Omg...
Can I juz allocate u all the tasks?Can I depend on u all?Can I leave?
I regret...I REALLY REGRET...

REGRET TO LIVE ON...

Juz when I'm gaining my little confidence...Juz when I start to trust my frenz...
I feel so tired,feel tt my heart is going to stop beating,suddenly,I feel tt,I noe tt I am so weak...

*My above tok are nonsense...Juz for me to de-stress de...
Take care my fren...

=Jac=

I am tired of life...

Tuesday, November 07, 2006 ( 11:41 PM )

I am tired of life...

I feel tt I am the liability to my frenz,my grps,my CCA...etc
Am I really the liability?
Hmmm...Good qns...
Ehh...I dunno...
I shld have realise this earlier...[I am the liability]
Wat a failure...

Recently,there were many things not going smoothly...
Can I juz die n leave everything to u all?
Or shld I have die earlier?
Muhahaha...Toking nonsense nia...
Depression is coming back...I dun wan...

I muz be motivated...Becos of my frenz...There's meaning for me to live on...
I am really tired le...
Who can teach me how to solve all difficulties step by step?
I really dunno...I think it's time for me to give up...

Am I really so irritating,annoying n stupid?
Am I really so useless?
Y am I feeling all this feelings all of a sudden?

Wat happen to me?
Hu can tell me?

Haiz...Juz treat the above text as I toking nonsense to myself...

Hope everyone's fine n happy...
Tmr,a better day...

*Quote:
We are not who we think we are,
We are not even who others think we are,
We are who we think others think we are...

=Jac=

Great Performance!!!

( 11:02 AM )

Hihi...

Great job everyone...The HI Club open ceremony was such a great success...LoL
Great...LoL...

Finally,I gt to slp more ytd...Slp at abt 10.30pm...LoL...

I am really disappointed with...I am feeling very tired to do...
I gt no motivation to move on...Even if I slp,I had nightmare sia...

Sian...I haven upload the photographs I've took ytd...Will try to upload asap...

=Jac=

WTH

Monday, November 06, 2006 ( 6:43 AM )

I really tired...Look at the time now...
Tell you wat,I din slp the whole night juz becos of BCA n coaching my cousin for his O level ltr [E Math Paper 1]...

I think the most poor thing de will be my laptop le...Xin ku ni le...
I oso wanna thks all my grp members in doing their jobs well...Ivy,Yen Kieng,Zhen Jie...
I now really feel like slping n I can feel my heart beat clearly,as if I am going to die soon...

OMG...
Ltr still gt HI Club Open Ceremony @ LT 73, 5pm-ard 7.30pm!!!
Sian...Cant go hm early to slp...
N oso,I gt BA Envoys Publicity to settle,I think I am going to faint in front of everyone le...
I am really poor at time management...Hu can teach me how?

Haiz...Gt to go sch le,gt FFA lecture in the morning,9am,somemore,it's held at LT 45!!!
Wah sian...Need to "climb hill"...

I am really lack of energy le...
Shan't tok more...

Gt to bath n head for sch lo...
Btw,Gd morning everyone...

=Jac=

Kill me plz...Tired...

Saturday, November 04, 2006 ( 10:13 PM )

Haha...

Tons of tutorial haven do...Tired sia...Lack of motivation...
Sian...

Gt lots of things waiting for me,suddenly feel tt I am useless...
Most of my works rely a lot on my frenz...
Though I am the leader,I felt tt I cant help at all,they all can decide themselves n do better than me...I am actually useless...LoL...
Haiz...

I really very useless...Stupid me...Haiz...
Brain cells like all die liao...Cant think,cant work...Wat de...

Tmr gt to work at IMM Giant...11.30am-8pm...
Tired man...Wat to do?I need the money to support myself,cant help,no choice...
Muhahaha...

=Jac=

My Wife...

( 12:04 AM )

This is my da lao po,Rose...
Her real name is Chunhui...This is her acting cute...LoL...

=Jac=

Bad Day...

Friday, November 03, 2006 ( 11:34 PM )

Today very "suay"...

Today I woke up at 6.30am,then I went back to bed...
Then I woke up at 9.45am...

I need 1 n a half hr to reach sch...

My Macro tutorial starts at 11am...
I reached sch at abt 11.30am...

I was late...I noe my tutor is very fierce type,I dun dare to go into the classroom...
I went to the underpass n do my Macro self study...

Then I waited for my frenz..They told me my tutor today in very bad mood...She suan everyone n scold them wor...Many ppl oso late wor...

Sad...First time pon lesson...I felt really very bad n guilty sia...I vowed I will not overslept n late again...

After lecture at 5pm,I went to IMM Giant with Huimin...
We went there to buy SD Card...I really thks her a lot...
1GB SD Card for $29.80,sch Co-op uncle wanna sell me $55 for 1GB SD Card...LoL...Heng I nvr buy frm him...LoL...
Then hor,the service crew tt serve us,really vrey gentle lo...Even when he open the cover,his moves r really gentle lo...LoL..He looks like my bro age,ard secondary sch age bah...haha...

Haha...
Then I went back to Clementi to take bus,but I couldnt find the temporary bus interchange...
I walked many places,round n round...Finally found it...LoL...

Wat a "suay" cum "heng" day...Diao...

=Jac=

Sad Sia...

Thursday, November 02, 2006 ( 11:57 PM )

Sad sia...

I received a call from my ex-art teacher Mdm Ngo in my sec sch,after I had given her a msg a few days ago...
She said,"Sorry to reply to ur msg so lately...Wanna tell u tt,I had asked my students to help to find ur art pieces[8 pieces of A2 size Board]...But...We juz cant find it...But,I've found 1 particular sketch of urs on the floor then,the rest went missing...I've asked Mr Teo[Art HOD],he said tt u can get ur pot[Pottery] back then...We r suspecting tt those juniors had took them for reference n nvr return..."

Wat the hell...I need my 8 boards for a CCA logo design de lor,I tot I can use the designs I've drawn,for the logo,now,I think I need to re-draw lo...Sian...

I am glad tt ppl appreciate my drawings but hor...Sian sia I need to re-draw...
Haiz...

=Jac=

I am borke...

Wednesday, November 01, 2006 ( 9:56 PM )

I love rainy day...
Today rained heavily...

Today was my pay day...
I bought a digital camera[Video Cam,10MP,4XDigital Zoom,MP3 player,PC/Web Cam,Voice Recorder...etc] today...
It costs me $199...
I still need to get a SD card myself,I dunno want to buy or not,the SD card[2GB] costs $75 at CO-OP...
Sian...
My pay is very de low lor...after buying the camera,top-up Card for my hp,Internet Boardband,still need to buy the SD Card,I think I gt not much left liao lor...

Haiz...I bought the cam becos of my LMS,IAC n my family use...I nvr had photo with my family b4..sian rite?LoL...

Then my hp spoiled le...Need to get a new one...I need to save up for tt...Sian...
I think I can try to eat less bah...Time for me to jian fei n oso save up for hp le...

Haha...

Today a bit "suay", I tripped from the staircase lo...
First time is when I went attend my IAC lesson,second time is when I helped my HI Club senior to buy ice-cream[I paid for the ice-cream] today...Then of cos...the ice-cream ended up on the staircase n most of my fren saw I tripped n fall,so paiseh sia...Wahahaha...

LoL...
But nvm...
Ohhhhh...Die I forgt to do tutorial for tmr...gt to do le...Sian..tmr gt only 1hr break...
Tmr lesson ended at 4pm...Then need rush for work...Need to work till 10.30pm...

Nitez all my frenz...

=Jac=