Lets forget the negatives!

HI Club Instructor Camp...

Friday, September 28, 2007 ( 4:41 AM )

HI Club Instructor Camp...
27Sep-30Sep for Camp Comm...
28-30Sep for students...
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27 Sep--Trial Day...

Took off from work and went down to help out...
Lose ard 50 bucks(pay) to juz go down whole day to help,and only gt hm at ard 12am...
But nvm,I happy...lol...
I din stayover,cos I got something on on 28 & 29Sep...
And I may need to work on 30sep,so not sure if going down to pay a visit...

Spent quite some time to paint the camp comm banner...
Went to many places to buy many things,all quite budget,and I've got balance of over 50bucks of estimated budget wor...

Haha...
Muz really thks ShengLong to help me get the wall paints,thinner and bamboo poles...
I bought 4 group flags(1m X 1m each),and a camp comm flag(2m X 1m),twines and chalks...etc
All materials for the banner n flags cost less than $80...

Today I do most of the painting myself,ard 90%,the rest,thks to all the hand print of the camp comm!
--Sorry ah,I forget wall paint is hard to wash away and I still start it off,n den still ask you all to do the same...(Even all of us use thinner,still cant clean our hand clearly...=/)

Haha...I think it's already quite good le ...
Oh,I oso bought camp comm mooncakes lo,hope they really like it lah,cos personally feels tt it's too sweet...
Haha...
But they finished them all...=)

Haha...
Sian,got to go...
Bye everyone!

*Recently,gaining back the interest of my past--Art,Musical Instruments,Languages,Vehicles...etc (Cool!)

=Jac=

Mid Autumn Festival...

Wednesday, September 26, 2007 ( 4:41 AM )

Mid Autumn Festival...

LoL...
During Mid Autumn Festival,I was working from 2.30pm till ard 11pm lo...

Din enjoy at all bah...
=X

Haha...
I got bring mooncake from Bengawan Solo to eat lah,but frankly speaking,too sweet le lah...=X

Haha...
Juz finish watching shows...
Dunno y,juz cant slp lo...
Haha,though I am really kinda tired...

Haha...
Hmm,well,shall intro a song I like recently,"Breaking Free-High School Musical 1" and my blog song,"道~to you all (Violin Version)-Aluto"...

"道~to you all (Violin Version)",I heard it when watching naruto shippuden...
Find it nice,the violin version is nicer than the original version I think...
Haha...

K lah,jya,hope everyone had enjoyed mid autumn festival,enjoy~

I shall go to bed le,ltr have to reach sch at ard 11am to prepare things for HI Club Camp...=)

Take care everyone,drink more water n rest well...=)
Nitez! "Shld be morning bah..." =X

=Jac=

Money...

Sunday, September 23, 2007 ( 9:01 PM )

Money...

After calculating,I shld get ard $700 for my pay on 3rd Oct...
And plus my a little savings...

Wanna buy:

~Sony Ericsson W810I ($350)
~External Hard Disk ($150)
~Pay my hse's utilities bills ($120)
~Fixed Cost ($120)
~Lend fren ($300) to help her with her sch fees

Not much left,so my farewell party muz be a very budget wan...
If not I dun hav to eat for the whole Oct le...

Haha...
Life is like tt,dunno we live to eat or eat to live,or shall I say,dunno we live to work or work to live...
All for money?!

Haha...
K,everyone,take care!
Cya!
Mid autumn festival is coming!
I sure will be very fat when sch reopen,keep on eating...=X
Haha...

Take Care...
*Drink more water!

=Jac=

New Stuffs...

( 2:25 PM )

New Stuffs...

Bought new pair of shoe n a wallet recently...=)

Affordable one...

Bought wallet for $12,shoe for $19.90...

C pics...o.O

=Jac=

Life is like a boat...

Thursday, September 20, 2007 ( 6:52 PM )

Life is like a boat...

Got high tide & low tide...

High tide=Primary school life
Low tide=Secondary school life
Normal=NP life...

Nothing special,watching "gong zhu xiao mei" recently,I think it's still quite nice leh...=)

I oso dunno y...
Recently I feel tt my life is only abt family,sch,work,money...
It's simple.

But it's like,lack of enjoyment.
Sometimes will envy other ppl,feel that they are better than me...etc
I admit,but it's only tt sometimes.

Recalling,for 18 yrs,I did not know clearly what I've learnt,what I've gone thru,sometimes feels that I've wasted my lifetime.
As what ppl says,"jia liao bi"...
Yet,I cant say I've learnt nothing,gone thru nothing,it's just that unclear...

There are many ppl out there talented,showcasing their talents and make themselves the limelight of whole world.

I feel that they are cool,yet my life still have to carry on,no time to waste on envying other ppl...

*PS. I am holding a farewell party oh,pls read your email--TA05

=Jac=

It was mean to be...

Tuesday, September 18, 2007 ( 11:03 PM )

It was mean to be...

Fate...

Thought that I've passed my exam,will be in the same class as the rest in TA05...
Little do I know...

Today early in the morning,went to work,9am-10.30pm(13.5hrs)...
Received some missed calls...
Den when I called back,it's like hrs after their miss call...

I missed it...
I totally,do not know that today was the self-select timetable date...
N of course,I totally missed the selection in the morning and there was no more TA05's space left!

I still din get into TA05 in the end huh...
Because of being careless...

Cry...sob...sad...I miss them all...
After the morning,calling back to them,I totally got no mood for work,though still work tt 13.5hrs,tired is all I can feel and I really must say,I missed TA05 lo...

How would I hope that miracle can happen now,hoping ppl to get off from TA05 and let me in...=/
*Pray hard...

But know deep inside my heart,it's impossible,and I am really very tired after work...
Physically n mentally...(Cos you all dunno how the aunties ask me to do this n that,like as if I am their servant,running abt here n there,like donkey...=X)

Fate,it means that I can be with TA05...=X
=/
T_T

=Jac=

Happy...

Friday, September 14, 2007 ( 8:35 AM )

Extremely Happy,Glad,Delighted,Blissful,Ectasy...etc

Heng ah,got pass all modules...
Though din score at all...

This is the first time,feeling so happy when I did poorly...
Guess becos of TA05...
Yay,can still be with TA05!

Happy...
Gam xia guan yim niu bor bi...=)

Jya,I got to work lo...
Bye...=)

=Jac=

Money...

( 12:35 AM )

Money...

I gave him $50 for his birthday(11Sep),
I gave her $20 2 days ltr(13Sep) as she requested,
I gave him $10 tonight(13Sep) though he requested $20...

He spent his money so quickly...
I haven got the time to earn more...
Tell me what to do...
Do I have to work for money for my life time?

Sian...
I wanted to go out with fren oso cant,no money,no time oso...
Not fair...
Both of you earn much more than mine,still ask money from me,dunno y...
My pay is only ard $300++ per mth...
I din ask a single cent from you two,still have to give you 2...

I have to pay for cell phone bill,transport,internet broadband($120),food,sch fee,own expenditure...etc
Wonder why some fren,relatives ard me wasnt like tt...

Used to think that as we grow up,we will have to work...
Dunno that my working lifestyle is so much earlier...

K lah,got to watch "zhong ji yi jia" lo...
Ltr work morning shift,sian...

Ltr will be the most impt day for this sem...
The great departure from TA05...=(

Bye...

=Jac=

What is impt?

Tuesday, September 11, 2007 ( 4:41 PM )

What is impt?

Lost...

Lost in this world...
Blindly working and pass everyday...

Do not know wat is impt to me...
Family?
Friends?
Works?
Studies?
Money?
CCAs?

Whatever it may be...
EXTREMELY far from what I dream...
Lost in this world,dunno what's impt to me,find meaningless to live in this world.

Everything seemed so significant...
I seemed to be tt EXTRA,insignificantly,living blindly in this world...

*See no future,rmb no past,and that the present,seemed that little extra...

=Jac=

Lack of motivation...

Monday, September 10, 2007 ( 5:47 AM )

Lack of motivation...

Not much motivation for CCAs lately...
Maybe too tired with my work...

Every Monday n Friday night got to work as a Chinese tutor at Yishun.
Every Sunday,will work as an operator for Anlene Bone Scan if there's Anlene event...
The rest of the week,will be Bengawan Solo Service Crew...(Cheap labour)

So everyday is like busy till I only got time to sleep,not bothered with any other things...
Unless for CCAs now,den I apply off day...
Know that there are many ppl out there who are like me...
Chiong working...
Haha...

But I have my reason de...

I would not be attending HI Club Camp,I gt personal reason de...
Pls dun get mad or over concern abt this,I will still do my job as a group leader in charge de,Iwill settle the preparation thingy de...

I haven inform the whole camp comm yet,but I think I will soon send email to you all de...
Haha...
I know none of you will read my blog,so it's ok to tell you all first thru my blog...
=X

The personal reason,hope you all dun ask,dun be too concern...
Haha...

For those who already know: I will be fine...

Haha...

K lah,gotta go for BA Envoys meeting le...(Regarding RED Camp...)
A bit sian...

C'est ennuyeux...

Haha...

Upcoming events...

-TAO5 outing
-HI Club Camp
-BA Envoys Camp
-RED Camp

...etc

Jia you everyone! =)
Ganbatte! =)

*Recently reading "The DaVinCi Code" ,very nice! =)

-Divine Proportion-PHI-1.618

=Jac=

One at a time...

Friday, September 07, 2007 ( 4:35 AM )

If everything can come one at a time,isnt it great?

Haha...

Recently feel abit stressed up...
At work n oso CCAs...
Dunno y all the CCAs' Camps are so near to one another,I mean the timing the camps that are going to held soon are very near to one another...

Got many things to settle...

And oso,as mooncake festival(mid-autumn festival) is nearing,my work load is heavier,basically,have to work everyday,earn little but have to entertain those "yin jim" ppl,very troublesome ctm...

And have to clear all the shit that those aunties(colleagues) left behind,do watever they instructed me to...

Have to throw those rubbish,do those cleaning,like as if I'm the ONLY cleaner and they dun have to do so...(Aint they working too? Y only me do all the stuffs?Y they can juz take a few pieces of paper,pretending to be very busy?)

Have to teach new colleague,have to handle those ctm,and also have to ans funny qns that those ctm asked...

Have to memorise all mooncakes' PLU Codes,as well as those cookies,kuehs n cakes(kuehs n cakes PLU codes are in my mind alrdy) and also help the new colleague along...(Hell work sia...)

Suddenly feel that when it's very bz,the new colleague is like abit extra,adding work load to me n din help much,by serving ctm slowly,bring all the orders(kuehs) to the cashier,waiting for me(I'm also serving other ctm),I half-way have to RUN from the front to the cashier(at the back) to key all the PLU codes and serve the ctm at the cashier there...=.=''

Problem is that,when sometimes not that bz,when she serve the ctm,n I noe wat the orders were,I told her the PLU codes(juz a few items only),asking her to key the register,hell lah,she pass the kuehs on my hand,n quickly turn towards another ctm,who,haven decide what to buy yet...
Diao lo...

Really will feel a little "buay song" lo...

Den nvm,as a newcomer,you still do not noe how to cut the cakes lo,still insists of cutting the coffee roll...
In the end,she wasted a slice of coffee roll(waste 1/6 of the cake),cos,it's really terribly small piece as compare to the others lah...
And the rest(5/6 of the cake),all in very obvious diff sizes...

The old saying: Haven learn to walk,wan to run...

See,fall down liao lah,mind you,she work for only the 3rd day nia k...

Everything have to go step by step...
You have to memorize all the kuehs,cakes PLU codes...
Be able to key register(be cashier)...
Packing the kuehs,breads,cakes...etc
Cut cakes...
Take cake orders...
Sell vouchers...
*Cleaning,everyone confirm MUZ do de lo...

Haiz...
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Then have to teach Leon,hopefully he can pass his Chinese and make sure I still can keep this Chinese tutor's job...=/

Have to plan those GLs thing for HI Club...
Have to be involve with BA Envoys Camp too...

Why everything come together at a time...
Seem too many tasks to be fulfill at a time...=/

Tired...
Eeeeeeeyer...

Quote of the day:

莎士比亚：

人们可支配自己的命运，若我们受制于人，

那错不在于命运，而是在于我们自己。。。

=Jac=

Commitments...

Saturday, September 01, 2007 ( 11:59 PM )

Commitments...

My commitments are studies,works and CCAs.
Well,lets tok abt CCAs.

HI Club...
Being the Head of Publicity.
Being an instructor.(Teaching sign language.)
Can communicate using sign language...=)

ERS...
Being the Head of Publicity(again,fate).
Get to love the Earth more n put action to prove it...=)

BA Envoys...
Being a group leader.
Trying my best to be more sociable...

BA Comm...
Being a member,basically if dun participate anything due to some circumstances,I'm nothing.

Used to love BA Comm alot...
The main reason for being drifted away from BA Comm is that low self-esteem n low self-confident level.

A poor speaker as compared to the rest in BA Comm,makes me feel so out-cast/left-out.
Seeing the rest miggle with one another so well,it makes me feel that my presence is juz tt EXTRA.

Not other ppl's fault,juz tt feeling.
Uncomfortable.
The CCA tt I once loved most,feel so diff now,not tt dun love it anymore,but the feel is diff now.

Dunno how to phrase it.
Dunno y all of a sudden I bring this up,mayb,juz feel abit pity.

Lastly,will still remain committed to the studies,CCAs n works...

Ltr still gt to work,bye everyone! =)
Take Care...

=Jac=