Lets forget the negatives!

Everything's fine.

Thursday, April 21, 2011 ( 11:51 PM )

Everything's fine.

I really thought so.
And yea, t-h-o-u-g-h-t...

I dunno what happened to me.

Workload is not as great as others, but am I stressed?

I feel like crying whenever I got home after work, alone in my room, why?

I was in my room, I dun have to put on a smile, I dun have to listen to what other ppl said, I dun have to even pay attention and be alert to anyone, anything.

I can do whatever I like, surf net, watch shows, and even talking to myself can be an enjoyment.

Is it because I removed my "mask" and be myself that I really missed and enjoyed to be so much, tt's y I can cry just as I like?

I dunno y I cry but I juz did.
I dunno wat happened to me but I juz became the "Me" that I wanted to be or rather, the "Me" that nobody knows other than myself, when I am alone.

Cry Jac, cry.
U ain't wrong, release and relieve.

Tears ain't weapon, ain't sympathy, ain't anything else other than your emotion.

Be true to yourself.

=Jac=

Tired of saying tired.

( 2:02 AM )

Tired of saying tired.

Since when "tired" becomes part of me and I mentioned it almost everyday...

I'm missing something.
I realised I forgt how I was in the past...

Just like any other day where I hate to think of my past, cos they are just a mirror showing and proving what a fool I have been all these while.

Now, I couldnt recall those that I doesnt want to forgt, but neither do I manage to forgt all the stupid stuffs I did, why?
But 1 thing I know for sure is, both good and bad memories, aint that clear anymore, they are somewhat, vade...

I resort to violence.

Unbelievably, I feel that pain can surpass the shamefulness I felt whenever I thought abt the past...

=Jac=