Lets forget the negatives!

Stupid me...

Sunday, February 25, 2007 ( 1:28 AM )

I so stupid lo...

Today consider myself quite "suay"...
Rode bicycle to work in the afternoon,on my way,I realised tt I forgt to bring the lock out,then...
From Sengkang,I rode to Buangkok MRT,park my bicycle there,then cos I noe tt MRT very little ppl will go de,so try my luck...

Then I walk to Hougang Mall to work...
Then of cos was late...
Kana scolding cum deduct pay...
LoL...=X

Then after work,I took bus 27 to that MRT station to check out the bicycle...
I forgt to tap my Ezlink card...[ard $2.60 was deducted wor...=(]
Haha...

Then,I go n c the bicycle,luckily the bicycle was still there,but still quite lucky from the unlucky...
Watever...
Everything's over!

Haha...
Juz now read email,informed tt I wasnt appointed for any post...LoL...
Quite happy actually,cos now I feel tt I actually treat wat I c was important b4,now not tt impt and have less passion in it...Haha...It's good tt I din take up the post as most likely I cant do tt well as compared to others...
LoL...

Wanna congrat Samantha for taking the "Head of Publicity" post in BA Communications and all...
Haha...

Gt to go watch anime le!!!
Btw,wanna share my ranking in my heart:

1) Family & Friends
2) Studies & CCA
3) Work & Money
4) Art
5) Anime & Interest

Haha...
I'm enjoying my life...Watching anime and have lots of frenz with me!
=)
Take Care my frenz! Jia you together!

=Jac=

( 1:24 AM )

I painted the shoe myself [Sliver pattern], first try,not very well done,from far looks ok,near look suck...LoL...=X

=Jac=

Shoe Painting

Friday, February 23, 2007 ( 8:21 PM )

Shoe Painting...

I paint my shoe today...
Not very nicely paint,it's tougher than I tot...From far,it looks ok,but near,not tt nice...
Haha...
Today suppose to work de,but the auntie wanna change shift with me,then I help her do Saturday shift lo...

Haha...
Today slp till very late cos recently bz with watching anime...[Prince of tennis]
I have grown fatter and fatter and fatter...Haiz...
New yr temptation...

Sian...
I today woke up then go pay internet bill,top up my Ezlink card...
Eat...Then paint my shoe...[Need to paint Yuan Qin's but I scare ltr paint spoil her shoe,tt's y use my old shoe to testing first...]
Then went to my cousin hse to eat dinner...

Went hm,watch tv,watch "Hana Kimi",watch anime now...
LoL...=)
Take care my fren!
Muz drink more plain water!
If u r getting sore throat,drink salt water,if u r getting cough,drink cold coke with salt but without ice...
Haha...
If u wan to have a nice slp,drink warm milk...
LoL...
Take care...Gt to watch anime le...
Bye!

=Jac=

Is Accounting Good or Bad?

Wednesday, February 21, 2007 ( 3:12 AM )

Is accounting good or bad?

When I went tomy grandparents' hse to celebrate CNY on the first day,my relatives said tt I looked more "cao lao" le...[Mature if were to said in a nicer way...]
Anw,my auntie once told me tt I've made the wrong choice to go into the course "Diploma of Accountancy"...
Then on CNY first day,my uncle told me it's a good choice,n he said tt there demand market in Singapore for Accountancy...
Haiz...Differnt ppl gt different views,even myself also hestitating on changing cos or even drop from sch...=X

I haven go to the temple to "bai tai sui" yet,mayb this Fri or Weekends will go bah...
Dunno yet,muz c my mum lo...

Actually I wanna say something abt myself,n after saying this,I am gonna head towards the future,let bygone be bygone...
I am gonna change myself bit by bit into a better person and I promised tt...

When I was young,Kindergarden kid,I was very generous,friendly and cheerful,I mean it,cos even teacher also praise me in front of my parents,and basically every adult n frenz said tt I am hardworking,obedient and all...
I had tried very hard to put myself in a very obedient self to let my parents feel proud of me.
I was once confident of myself,confident in everything I do,I trust myself and I have a lot of frenz and happiness...
Though I live in a family which is not rich and indeed quite poor,I din even have the chance to eat out...[Even at hawker centre,the chance is very rare...]

My dad is very violent,took all my money,my savings from my allowances and even beat me or force me to give him wat I have...He used the money to drink,to gamble and to smoke...
I know all type of gamble and I did played them b4,I drink first tym of my life since at the age of ard 4...

Tiger Beer,Heniken,Gusiness,ABC,Gaslberg...etc
Drink b4,long tym ago...

I know how to write when I was at the age of ard 2...
I learnt cooking since primary 4,cos I am really very short at tt tym,I wasnt able to learn cooking till I am primary 4[Still need to depend on stool too]...
I wnt hm myself from sch since primary 1...
I gt my own hse key since primary 1 too...
I am very sociable when young,I made lots of frenz and I am very "da dan",I dare to do alot of things tt surprised ppl...
Such as when I am still at the age of primary 1,I brought my brother to my grandparents hse[only the 2 of us],from Yishun to Serangoon...

I started to be self fish towards my cousins when I was at very young age...cos my dad always spend his money on them,and when he spends his money,he will take from me very soon as this means tt he has no money,he will take from me,cos my bro is 1 yr younger than me,n he dun save,tt's y my dad target me as his "ATM" after my mum...
And when I was young,I already learnt "survival skills" and gaining bit by bit th ability to adapt to environment fast...

I hate my dad when I started to learn,when I grown older...
I nvr rebel my parents b4,in any choice,even the schools n CCA he wanted me to get into,I nvr fail to do so...
He wanted me to go "Yishun Primary School",I went,he wanted me to go "Nan Chiau High School",I managed to went in too,he wanted me to take "NPCC" as my CCA,I also managed to get into it...

Tt's not I wan...He gave me total freedom,I can go hm late,they trusted me,I always gain ppl's trust and I really felt stress[my own stress,I stressed myself too much]...

N becos I am afraid to lose,I stressed myself too much,I am suffering from depression...
I start working since Sec 1&2,flyer distributor,irregularly...
Then work at Pizza hut since Sec3 Nov-Dec...
Then work as Data Entry while waiting O' Level Result...Oso work b4 at Breadtalk...etc
Now I am working as Sales Assistant at Bengawan Solo,promoter...

I work myself as I believe I can support myself,I am born on 17th July,cancerian,very moody and easily hurt emotionally...
I was hurt by my dad numerously[by his words,actions...etc],I start to hate him n not trust him...[abit becos of this,I started not to trust anyone,especially guys]
I was forced to work and support myself as if at my age I should have already support myself [to him],I did not take a single cent from him since Sec4...And I even have to pay my handphone bill,internet bill,transport bill,food,necessities,some times gt more cos work more,I give them the money too...etc[every mth,regularly...]
I even paid more than half of the laptop myself...

I gave him all my scholarship,bursary,good progress awards...etc
And he claimed tt he owes all the money of mine as he's m father...etc[I do not wish to tok abt this]

I had been hurt by frenz and I learnt to protect myself through words[suan other ppl back,tt's y I gt strong suaning power...]

I was once felt tt this world is gonna end for me and dio depression[even if I protect myself with "shield",the shield also need to repair de,and I felt weak n lonely]...I tot of committing suicide but I do not have the courage to do so...Luckily of my teachers and some really good frenz,they saved me...

My results for O level had been very disappointing to myself,my teachers and frenz...
I was once the 2nd of the class and I dropped till the last few of the class...
My 5 "A1" dropped till 1...
All becos of my depression...None of my frenz nor teacher realise I have problems until the very last moment when I really cant take it and I cried everyday in my room,I look for them personally to seek for help...

Though my parents are both working,they are both low-educated,very little pay they gt,I have to support myself and to discipline myself to lighten their burden,tt was wat I tot...
But little do I noe tt,at my age,I am still not capable to manage everything tt well...

It was a "da ji"[shock] for me to go into poly...
All teacher nvr expect me to go into poly...
And at the moment on making decision to go to wat courses,I purposely choose the furthest and I actually mean to rebel my parents,but I nvr knew,they actually let me make my decision and juz remind me tt it's far...
I ignore them and said,"let tt then can test my determination to finish the course in 3 yrs mah...]
The other rebel is tt I told them I dun like to do hse work,though I did sometimes,but becos I really gt no time n tired after school and work,I think I escape the fate of doing all the house work...
But I also gt help de,when I free...
Cos I gt to work after school,then by the tym I reached hm will be ard 11.30pm,then my dad dun like ppl to do housework at night de...

But as fo going into Ngee Ann Polytechnic,I din regret,I love poly life,at least I feel tt I am gaining "myself" back...[Gaining my confidence bit by bit,I know many good frenz...]
I am sorry abt always cant make it for gathering,cos hope u all understand,I really gt my "ku zhong"[reasons]...

Now tt my dad had changed alot and I am gaining "myself" slowly,I hope I can keep it up...
There are still more to say[my story,but they are all past,I shall stop here...],I believe everyone has gt their own story,a fail or a sucess one,depend on how u c them...
I want to c the bright side of the world...

And from 2007 onwards,I will try my best to change myself,I noe I have alot of bad habits,bad points,I will change them all...but I need tym too...
Haha...
Let bygone be bygone,I will now stop brood over the past,stop living in the past and head towards the new,bright future!
Hope u all will too!=)

Take care my frenz!=) Heez...Gonna watch anime le...

=Jac=

Celebrating at Mdm Pey's hse

Monday, February 19, 2007 ( 11:06 PM )

Haha...
Went to my auntie hse today afternoon,ply mahjong there...
Haha...
I won lo,but juz play w/o money,so get nothing back except the satisfaction...
LoL...

Then went to Mdm Pey's [My Sec1&2 form teacher] hse at ard 6.30pm to celebrate CNY...
She really can cook...
Nice salad,nice chicken...etc
Haha...
She a Chinese who married a Malay...Very cool hor...
Something more cooler lo,her son is 14mths old,she imparted 4 languages to her son lo,Mandarin,English,Malay and...
Haha...
Really enjoy myself there as I met a lot of frenz[Long tym nvr c them...]...
Haha...

Well now slack at hm,tmr gt to work from 2.30pm-10.30pm...[Bengawan Solo]
Sian...Haiz...
Now gonna watch anime le...
Tok to u all tmr!
Bye...
Take care,muz enjoy new yr!=)

=Jac=

CNY-First Day

Sunday, February 18, 2007 ( 5:36 PM )

Haha...Slp at 5am,woke up at 9am,went to my grandparents' hse...

I eat stemboat for ytd n juz now at my grandparents' hse...
Every full sia...
Haha...[man zu man zu]

Sian,dunno y,my 'Hong Bao/Ang Bao-Red Packets' are getting smaller n smaller,now,not even $60 in total...Haha,but nvm,the elders gave us 'Hong Bao/Ang Bao-Red Packets' to ya sui...It's the tot tt counts...Haha...LoL...

Juz reach hm nia...
I gamble juz now,with my cousins n my grandma[cos c grandma face then play de...]
Capital is $20,won $8,gave my bro some cos he lost some...
W played black jack,but I din get black jack lo,haiz,not tt lucky at first,I only gt 2 time black jack for whole afternoon lo...
Haha...
But anw,still won,not tt bad...=)

Haha...I am so happy this yr,cos din c my auntie...[she went to Malaysia with her family to celebrate with her husband parents...]

Cos I dun really like this auntie...her "suaning power" is 100 times of mine...So,now u all noe y i dun like her le bah,she gt everything to say even u did nothing wrong...[She always feels tt she's rite n u cant tok back,she will purposely embarrass u in front of the others...(I everytime c her sure kana her suaning...)]

Haha...I love Lapis Cake,Shrimp Roll,Peanut cookies,Peanut,Love Letter,Kueh Bolu...etc
Yay!
I love food,I love to eat...I can eat a lot,I am a big eater,I am fat[Extremely]...

Haha...
Gonna go my cousin's hse ltr...
To continue celebrating bah...I've already eaten my dinner,but sure to eat again...
No wonder I am of this size...=X

Ok...Now gt no show to watch,gonna watch my anime lo...Heez...
Happy New Yr to Everyone!

=Jac=

( 3:49 AM )

See? How can I not be fat? Temptations...

=Jac=

CNY Eve

( 3:41 AM )

On MRT,all of us took LRT then transfer to MRT...
[Picture] At Outram MRT Station... [When we reached Chinatown,we walked frm Chinatown MRT station till Tanjong Pagar MRT station,then we travel from Tanjong Pagar MRT till Outram MRT station,then...then go hm...]

Frm left: My cousin's GF,My cousin[Joey],my mum,my cousin[Christopher] and his mum...

The rest of them[relatives,my cousins' frenz and bro sit other place...]

=Jac=

Chinatown

( 3:14 AM )

The day b4 CNY Eve,tt day morning late for BMGT exam...
I went to Bugis with Huimin they all to shop,then went to work...

Worked till 12am,reached hm at ard 2am...
The Taxi uncle wanna con our money lo,turn here and there,purposely took longer trip lo,though the taxi fare can claim from Bengawan Solo,but we all tired le[4 us,staffs of Bengawan Solo],he still purposely turn here n there,in the end kana my "shooting",I let the uncle "xia suay"...
Then after reaching hm,bath,then cant slp,then watched anime till morning 5am,then slp then wake up at 8am to go to work...[CNY eve]

Haiz...CNY eve I worked till 6pm,reach hm at ard 7pm...
Then after dinner I went to bed...
Then...

China town...

Went to Chinatown juz now,ard 10.30 pm...[Reach hm at ard 1am]
I din enjoy it well...
I went there with my cousins,relatives,my mum and my bro...
There r ard 9 ppl walking in a group,squeeze with ppl on the street...

I even kana step by ppl many time lo,I perspire a lot,sticky and smelly...Everyone's the same...
Thought can go there and shop,but we are juz paying to go there and join the crowd and "enjoy" the new yr mood...
Then after we squeeze with ppl,we decided that we shall juz gather at my cousin hse to gamble...
I wanna watch youtube,tt's y I came hm first[my hse is very near my cousin's]...
Another reason is tt I dun like gamble becos of my dad,then I very rare then gamble de lo,play mostly card games or mahjong w/o the association of money...

Haiz...
I ate a lot of good food today...Looks like I will surely gain a lot of weight during this new yr...
Haiz...
I wanna jian fei...Cos I am too fat le...
And if I were to be more fatter,I think I will look EXTREMELY ugly bah[now look ugly]...

Ok,watever it is...
I will jian fei after new yr,cos my relatives' mouth are very "powerful"...
If they c u eating less than wat they expect,they will ask u to eat more and ask u not to "jian fei"...etc

Haha...Ltr gonna go Grandparents hse,then may go my auntie hse or go hm bah...
Most prob will also go "bai tai sui" bah...
Hope I can pass my exam...

Hope I can xin xiang shi cheng...
Take care my fren,though I very tired n not enough slp due to recent exams n work[till mid-night],recently slp less then 4hrs per day,I still wanna "shou shui"...

Haha,now gonna watch youtube,my favorite anime[Prince of tennis,Naruto,Bleach,Death Note...etc] Haha...=)

Take care my frenz!
*May we be in same class again nxt sem...[TA05]

=Jac=

Sian-sation

Friday, February 16, 2007 ( 12:03 PM )

Sian-sation...
Haiz...

Ytd study till doze off,ten today late for exam...really "suay"....
Haiz...The main prob is that I haven finish studying...

Haiz...

Really feel tt this one n FFA will fail...
Oh no...

I ltr still gt to work till 12am...
Haiz...Forget it,watever is over,over le...
Ok...

2007,here's new Jaclyn coming!!!
Yes!I will change n jia you de...
=)
Take care my frenz!
*I think I will design class tee for TA05 during the holiday...=)

=Jac=

Lunar New Year

( 12:14 AM )

Wao...Lunar New Year is juz round the corner...
Sian man,still need to work...

Haiz...
Tmr gt BMGT,think will fail...
After tmr's exam,gt to rush to buy my new yr clothes n shoe[Converse]...
After exam,think I will buy my new hp...[Sony Ericsson W810I]
Then after buying my things,need to rush to work...
Need to work from 5.30pm-12am!!!
I dun like Bengawan Solo,their pay rate really low lo...
Even new yr oso nvr increase pay,still $4.30 per hr...Sian

=(

Then cos recently not enough slp,I gt a lot of pimples lo,haiz...
I can already imagine my relatives asking me abt my face during new yr le...
New yr,really good meh?

Btw,I have already made up my mind,I will start a new,be different from before,improve myself de,I will jia you n change myself into a new self...

Haha...Watever it is...

Gtg,ltr still gt Business Management Exam...
I guess I dun have to slp again...
Luckily juz now I gt took an afternoon nap...
If not I will drop dead by now...

Haha...
My wish for 2007...
I will change n improve myself,I want to learn a lot of things,I want to 活得充实一点。。。
I want to learn many language...
I wanna improve my English,as it is really poor...[Limited vocab]

Sian...Kk...
Really gtg now...=)

Take care my frenz!

=Jac=

Sian

Tuesday, February 13, 2007 ( 10:29 AM )

Hihi!!!

I now really die sia...Sian...Haven even start study for BMGT[Business Management] yet lo...
I promise,I will be a new me in yr 2,2007...

Dunno whether have I gone into the wrong course not,cos my FFA really very poor lo...Haiz...

I hope I will be more serious as I turn into 18 this yr bah...
Haha=)

Jia you...Gambate neh...
Woosh...

=Jac=

IAC photos

Monday, February 12, 2007 ( 6:01 PM )

IAC class...My group members n IAC tutor...

From the left,WenSi,Mr Tham,Margaret and HweeYim

=Jac=

Anime...

( 5:53 PM )

Woosh!
I love anime!!!

I recently oso gt watch Hana kimi...LoL...
Haha...Very funny n not very logical sometimes...ou xiang ju jiu shi ou xiang ju...
LoL...
Haha...

The characters all very weird...
Haha...

Btw,I haven buy my new yr clothes...n oso I still cant find my Converse Shoe Size...
Sian...
I still have to work on 15,16 & 17 Feb...Sian lo...

Some times I am thinking,wat are idols? hu is ur idol?
Dun u feel tt some times u r wasting ur money n time on them,dun u?
But as a fans of ur idols,u will feel everything is worth it de lor...
Ok lah,tt statement I wrote is normative,it's up to u all to tink lo...
haha

Gonna finish the hana kimi ep 13 then g study my Fundamental Financial Accounting[FFA] le...
Sometimes I really think tt I dun have the study material in me,cant study well,but luckily nvr fail...Still can pass...Wuhaha...

Take care all my Frenz!
New yr coming,Jia you k?Haha...Finish the exam n Happily celebrate our New yr bah!!!
Haha...
=)

=Jac=

Internet Prob Finally Solved!

Thursday, February 08, 2007 ( 2:54 PM )

Internet prob finally solved!!!

Yay,my internet problem,officially solved after an exact one month of failure connection!!!

Sob,though I din use th broadband for a mth,I still have to pay for it,sian...$38...

Haix,wat ever it is...

Recently I received lots of invitation for gathering...
TA05 Chalet,TA05 CNY plan,Felicity CNY plan,ERS members' shopping plan on 16 Feb and Hi Club members' gathering after CNY and BA Envoys' Camp...

Haha...Many things...
Not to forget,still gt to work,study ...etc

Now finally my internet prob solve...Yay...

I ytd went to sch for HI Club main comm interview...not much confident cos I am really poor at my sign language...

I love HI Club and sign lanuage actually but because I am slow learner,I cant learn tt fast as compared to the others...
Haiz...

I haven buy CNY things and clothes yet...Sian...
No money oso...

Haiz...$$$...
N oso...My laptop is a bit crazy now,black colour became red and white became blue colour...
I will bring my laptop for service after my exam bah...

Kk...Now gt to go work lo...bye...

Take care my frenz!
All the best for our exams!!!

=Jac=