Lets forget the negatives!

Slacker

Monday, April 30, 2007 ( 1:15 AM )

Me being very slack...

This sem I sux lor,very slack...
Haiz...
Reluctant to move on...

I wan my old self back,the cheerful,smart and considerating Jac...
Now I am opp of the old me...
She's dead cos of the society,hmm,mayb not society but her experience n her environment...
Watever...

Recently,like very hungry like tt,eat loads,like pig...
Can eat 5 meals a day...

Nothing to blog here today...

Gtg...
Take care...
Bye...=)

*Wat do u all mean by asking,"you r not like tt de..."
U all noe my true self? Which kind of me is me? I oso dunno...=X
Juz tok rubbish nia...

=Jac=

NUS Actual Performance

Sunday, April 29, 2007 ( 2:05 AM )

Today overslp cos ytd I slp at 6am...

Cos waiting for the videos to upload n send to my ISP grp leader,Ivy...
I am sorry...
I managed to send only 6 videos...
Total of over 10 Videos...

Hmm...
I overslp,was late for HI Club song signing rehearsal...[Love me]

Then,reached there at ard 12pm,then set off to NUS to rehearse...
Then we played games,paper mahjong,poker card,watch DVDs...
Till our turn to perform in the dry run,full dress run...etc

Then have dinner at ard 5.30pm...
Then go for performance at ard 8pm...

The performance was quite alrite,as heard from som seniors,in the audience seats...

But we heard ppl "boo" us lo,when the curtain closed...=/
Hmm...
Wonder...

Well,then I oso gt prepare my singing in the room...
Practicing for BA Comm's Recruitment Drive on the 2-4 May...
Fen Shou Kuai Le...
My voice not good recently...
A bit sore throat liao cos of a "cow" spreading his coughing diease ard in the rm...

My singing sucks...
Thks everyone for bearing with my voice...
Cos I noe today,wherever I go,I keep singing...
Hee...=)

Heard Kaiyun sing today,heard Wilson and the "Cow" singing oso...
Their voice all very nice lor...=)

Haha...Mine not good...
Haha...

After performance,I went to eat with HI Club ppl...
Then we went to Clementi Mac to eat,after tt,we went hm...
When I reached Clementi Bus Interchange,the bus 156[gt go to my hse there...],passed in front of my eye...

I looked at my watch...
2335...
I looked at the berth board,"Last bus,2330"...
I missed the bus at Clementi...
Haiz...

I waited till 2350...
Still no bus 156...
Bo bian,I took bus 147 instead...
Gt go to Hougang bus interchange at least...
Then after I reached Hougang,I walked till IMH,then waited for my dad to fetch me at the bus stop near there de...

Reached hm 2am...

Haha...
Tired,surprise and adventurous day...

Hee...
Tomorrow still gt to work in the morning,till 10.30pm...

Then still gt to do ISP proj...
Haiz...
Gtg...

Bye,take care my frenz!=)

Thks JingYing n Jasmine today...U all shall noe y...Hee...=)

=Jac=

Performance ltr...

Saturday, April 28, 2007 ( 2:45 AM )

Performance at NUS...

Recently bz with CCAs...
HI Club n BA Comm...

Gonna perform song signing at NUS this Sat,which is ltr...ard 7pm...
But will b there early to prepare...
Haha...
Ltr 10 am need to b in sch...
Tired...Sian...

Still gt to do report n proj...
I think I may bring lappy to sch to do too...

Haiz...
I am really tired liao...=X

Keep having performance rehearsals,gt hm late,at ard 12pm plus,near 1am...
Then do tutorial,if dunno how to do then no choice...
YK lent me her tutorial...
For taxation tutorial...
I am really feeling very guilty lah...

The tutor oso noe I borrow from ppl...
Haiz...
No tym to do or wat so ever...
All excuses rite?
I noe...
I am juz an idiot...

I feel tt our signings are still very poor,not standardized yet...
Formation oso not tt nice...
The stage at UCC oso not as big as we tot it will b...
Haiz...

Sian...

I promise myself to work hard from yr 2,this sem...
But y I juz feel so lethargic...

I muz study well...
If not my dream is gonna scattered...
Now tt it's half gone...
Hopefully I can start everything a new...
Turn over a new leaf...

Jia you jia you jia you...

Hope ltr's performance will b a smooth n good one...*Pray*

Btw...
I will be singing duet with Kwek Gek for BA Comm Recruitment Drive[2-4May]...
Rose suggested us to sing "Fen shou kuai le",by Liang Jing Ru,Fish Leong...
We will be singing on this thur...
But my singing sucks lah...=X
Hope if u all happen to c it,dun laugh hor...
Hee...

Then everyone,nites,take care...=)

*Lyrics...

分手快乐

Gek:
我无法帮你预言
委曲求全有没有用
可是我多么不舍
朋友爱的那么苦痛
爱可以不问对错
至少有喜悦感动
如果他总为别人撑伞
你何苦非为他等在雨中

Jac:
泡咖啡让你暖手
想挡挡你心口里的风
你却想上街走走
吹吹冷风会清醒的多
你说你不怕分手
只有点遗憾难过

Both:
情人节就要来了
剩自己一个
其实爱对了人
情人节每天都过

Gek:
分手快乐
祝你快乐
你可以找到更好的
不想过冬
厌倦沉重
就飞去热带的岛屿游泳

Jac:
分手快乐
请你快乐
挥别错的才能和对的相逢
离开旧爱
像坐慢车
看透彻了心就会是晴朗的

Both:
没人能把谁的幸福没收
你发誓你会活的有笑容

Jac:
泡咖啡让你暖手
想挡挡你心口里的风
你却想上街走走
吹吹冷风会清醒的多

Gek:
你说你不怕分手
只有点遗憾难过

Both:
情人节就要来了
剩自己一个
其实爱对了人
情人节每天都过

Gek:
分手快乐
祝你快乐
你可以找到更好的
不想过冬
厌倦沉重
就飞去热带的岛屿游泳

Jac:
分手快乐
请你快乐
挥别错的才能和对的相逢
离开旧爱
像坐慢车
看透彻了心就会是晴朗的

Both:
没人能把谁的幸福没收
你发誓你会活的有笑容
你自信时候真的美多了

=Jac=

Controlled thinking Vs Automatic Thinking

Thursday, April 26, 2007 ( 3:00 AM )

Controlled thinking Vs Automatic Thinking...

I gt back my lappy today,very happy...
I used my lunch tym to collect back my lappy...
Thus,I only hav tym to eat 3 pcs of bread n a can of green tea for the whole day...

Went for the performance rehearsal again...
Promised Rose tt I will sing for BA Comm's upcoming event...
Will be singing most likely with another gal,KwekGek...
Duet...
Haha...

Watever...
After today's rehearsal,went hm n eat my dinner...Maggi mee with many ingredients...
Haha...Secret!=)

Then I wanna tell Huimin tt sorry,forgt to pass the $5 to u,Huiqi asked me to pass to her,but I totally forgotten abt it...
Really sorry...

Memory is getting poorer nowadays...=/

I have been thinking alot...
My mind goes wild...
The old mind concept suddenly come back to haunt me...

Feel tt life is worthless...
I AM A FAILURE...
Feel so pessimistic...
The tot of suicide...Runs thru my mind,I was able to calm myself n think...
Nvr conduct it,juz thinking abt it...

Wat if I die?
-The earth will still revolve,nothing will change...
-There makes no difference in whether I stay or not on earth...

My presence = Nothing

I am hopeless...
I DUN DARE TO TRUST PPL,COS I CANT EVEN TRUST MYSELF...
DUN TRUST ME,COS I AM AFRAID I WILL FAIL TO HOLD RESPONSIBILITY FOR UR TRUST...

I dunno wat I am toking,hope u all can bear with me...

Sorry...

Really sorry...

Take Care all my frenz,dun fall sick,muz look after urself well...=)

Bye...I gtg...

=Jac=

For 24Apr,Tue

( 2:52 AM )

For 24Apr,Tue...

I overslp today cos ytd's HI Club Song signing performance rehearsal was up till very late,I reached hm only at ard 12plus midnight recently,these few days...

I missed a 2 hrs lecture,shant mention wat lecture...
But really feel very guilty n uneasy...
Nvr pon any of my lessons in my life b4...

Tt was mayb my first,and unintentionally one...=(
Not only tt...
I was almost marked absent for my tutorial...
I shldnt have slp so late,but really very bz recently...
I noe it's my fault,me to blame...
But I promised,nvr will it happen again...

I AM VERY TIRED,WHO UNDERSTAND MY SITUATION?
The stress...
The physical n mentally tired me...
Only left the body with no mind n soul...
How would u feel to stand beside to a person like tt?

Hu noes the true me?
Ans: No one...

Hu understand me?
Ans: No one...

Why am I on Earth?
Ans: Cos I am useful in some way to some ppl perhaps...

Dun ask me y I have such a tots...
No one noes abt my past,nvr will I reveal all...

Juz treat watever I said here as bullshit,crapping...
I am juz releasing my stress bah,wanna apologise to everyone...

=Jac=

For 20Apr,Fri

( 2:46 AM )

For 20 Apr,Fri...

Dunno y,everything just so "suay" for me recently...

Laptop spoiled...
Many things does not went smoothly in my life,it just seemed to b tt way...

True...

But y altogether at a shot?

I admit being quite irritating,annoying at times...

Realising I was very fortunate yet having problems...

-Financial problem
-Family problem
-Relationship with colleagues & friends problem
-Bills
-Studies problem
-Health problem
The above stated are the major prob I faced...
There are more to say but I feel tt I shldnt mention...

No one born to b a leader,no one was born knowing everything...
Knowing this,you can do better in life...=)

=Jac=

For 18Apr,Wed

( 2:37 AM )

For 18Apr,Wed...

Today is the last day of CCA Fiesta,saw alot of names on the recruitment list...Happy...=)
I targeted 100ppl,but nly gt ard 90 ppl joined...
But I am still feeling very happy lah...haha...
Now left the start of the lesson,how many out of that 93 ppl will attend...

Still haven send my lappy for service,cos no tym recently...
Wanna apologise to ERS,I kind of neglect the club's publicity...=/

Nxt,I really wanna make myself very clear tt
I REALLY DUN LIKE PEOPLE TO TOUCH ME!
If is the same sex de,I am still ok,but I dun like ppl to touch me k?
My parents oso nvr touch me de lor,not even my hand...

I actually wann tell Timothy tt I dun like ppl to touch me lor,he lways like to tickle ppl,then hor,I not afraid of tickle lor,but I HATE ppl touching me k?
I nvr tell him last tym cos I think he's juz playing nia,but really hope no nxt tym!

Some of MANY Bad habits of mine...

-I dun share drinks[Saliva],unless no choice-NPCC in sec sch...
-I dun like ppl to touch me...

Hope everything goes smoothly!=)
Take Care my frenz!

*Unless being provoked,if not I will not be agressive...

=Jac=

For 17Apr,Tue...

( 2:30 AM )

For 17Apr,Tue...

Today bought 2 pens and a highlighter...
$4.60 in total...

I gave my mum $10,ask her to help me to bring my wath to the watch shop to change the batt...
It costed $5,as for the other $5,she kept as "tips"...
Diao...Haha...I said,"give u lor,expected ur tips to b at a higher rate..."
Finally my watch is ok liao...[Long tym nvr wear it cos I keep 4gt to get new batt for it...]

Today gt something happened @ the CCA Fiesta Booth,haiz...
Sian...

Really hope tt the CCA Fiesta is a success to us...
Actually my target is to get 100 members during the 3 days.
Tmr is the last day...
Hope everything's fine...=)

K,gtg...
Really hoped tt HI Club & all my Frenz can stay Happy forever...
Tt's all I wish...
As for my family,they are already very happy liao,cos gt me mah...haha...=X

K...Take Care,bye!=)

=Jac=

For 16 Apr,Mon

( 2:10 AM )

For 16Apr,Mon...

The first day of CCA Fiesta have arrived...
Promised my bro to help him call the National Dental Centre to book appt,in the end,I did call,but no one pick up the phone and then I forgot to try calling back ltr...

Early in the morning,8.30am,helped ERS to set up the booth,then go to HI Club booth to tend it,sign songs,realised tt,OBVIOUSLY MY SIGNING SUCKS!!!
-Dunno alot of signs..etc

Then after the booth tending,saw WanSin's face very black[President of HI Club],in bad mood,then,I oso dun dare to have to have lunch,ate a bread from "Four Leaves" and a bottle of green tea,juz these 2items for the whole day...

Then go for lesson-Intro to Social Psychologies [1pm-5pm],continuously,non-stop,the tutor can really tahan,4hrs toking non-stop,no breaks lor...
But I like this course...Let me think more...=)

Tired at the end of day,went to HI Club Booth after lesson,then go for rehearsal for song signing performance [Change A Heart,Change the World],then half-dead,cant think @ all,sign very lousy,slow,lazy sign,cant concentrate & keep forgetting the lyrics...=/

After the rehearsal,took bus74 with FangQi to go Hougang,she lives ard there,then I go have my dinner n went hm...
Reached hm @ ard 9pm,apologized to bro abt the appt thing,too tired to move myself,I slack in front of the TV,then ard 10pm then bath...

Then wanna try out my lappy again,but still cant,I am quite tired and frustrated,and dunno y,I cried...=(
[Of cos alone in my rm,no one noe I was crying...]
Then after tt sms frenz to ask for the nxt day's timetable then went to bed...
[Cos cant c my timetable from lappy & I nvr print a hard copy...]
Haiz...

Slp at ard 12am...
Ususally slp at ard 3am...
Cos gt insomnia...

But somehow,I juz feel tired,mentally n physically,tmr gt lesson at 9am too...=(

=Jac=

For 15Apr,Sun

( 1:57 AM )

For 15Apr,Sun...

Was in sch,2pm-9pm,Wansin & Jasmine came at ard 4pm to help me out...

But still sian cos I brought everything again from Sengkang to sch...All the paints,Mahjong papers,construction papers,VERY big cupboards...etc

Den Jasmine went off first,left me n Wansin...
Both of them helped me in the booth display board...
After finish everything,then we went to BPP to hav Mac,chat...till ard 9.45pm,took bus then went hm...

Tot alot...knew my mistake,still learning to lead ppl...
Dunno how to give instructions,being TOO LAST MINUTE...
Really wanna thks Jasmine,WanSin n Shenglong...
Jasmine n Wansin helped me in the display board,Shenglong helped me to print and think of the wordings for the flyers n posters...=)

And Jing Ying,I know you are doing voluntary work,cant help me on Sun,but really glad tt you have the heart to help me & replied me,this gave me moral support to move on...Haha...=)

These few days really feel tt I am very clumsy & stupid,I wear shorts,slippers,carried alot of things,paints,table cloth,big cupboards...etc from my hse to sch...
I took bus to sch...

The passengers find me weird or at least I feel tt ppl were looking me in a diff way...

Spent ard $4 in total for the booth...[Including the flyers and posters...]
Surprised? Haha...

Went hm,but cant slp,tot of doing the Alternate Publicity,but lappy was spoiled,no design to c,then went to cousin's hse[1.30am] to seek help,slp @ 5.30am...

*Still din manage to get the design n pictures painted...Haiz...[Useless me...]=/

=Jac=

For 14 Apr,Sat

( 1:41 AM )

For 14 Apr,Sat

I woke up early to go to Hilton Hotel[Next to Far East Shopping Centre], to work as Anlene Bone Scan operator...

Fun,relax...
Good food and boring seminar...

Tt day was actually a sprt seminar for Nutritionist...etc
Then they will walk pass our booth during their break for bone density scan...
Served ard 53 ppl...
Then the nurse and me also eat there...[Lunch provided or the ppl there,but we sort of join in cos buffet style...
Nice food...

The after work,worked from 7.30am-3.30pm,rushed hm,heavy rain,din bring umbrella,reached hm @ ard 5pm,then hav dinner,then took ALOT of barang barang with me to NP[From Sengkang to Clementi]...
Reached sch at ard 7.30pm,leave sch @ ard 10pm...
Did the HI Club booth decor myself[mostly]...[Btw,the booth is for CCA Fiesta...]
Managed to catch the last bus hm...
Reached hm late...

The nxt day, I went down to sch again...

=Jac=

For 13 Apr,Fri...

( 1:39 AM )

For 13 Apr,Fri...

I've worked from morning 9.30am-10.30pm[13hrs] for Bengawan Solo...
Tired...
Nvr attend many meetings...[Opportunity Cost...]

=Jac=

Enticing Babylon

Friday, April 13, 2007 ( 12:18 AM )

Enticing Babylon...

Finally,juz now was the end of BAOC...
Was in grp 4 of Enticing Babylon...

Tired and having sore throat now...
But saw many babes n hunks...=)
I can say,this batch of BA students,gt many better looking ones...

Well,I muz say tt it was a great n successful one...=)

Then back to main topic...
Still gt may things on hand to do...
CCA Fiesta for HI Club and ERS...
I noe I have been neglecting ERS...
I muz really apologize and tt thks for all my frens' support...
Really feel tt myself is being irresponsible...

Haiz...
I am really sorry...
And tt I gt to work ltr,cant attend the HI Club Choir performance rehearsal...
Oso cant attend the main comm meeting...
Oso cant meet Shenglong n president for the Club tee n the booth decoration thing...=/

Oso cant make it for Fun'07 for ERS...
Oso cant help much in ERS booth setting...=/

Hmm,sound tt I really din so anything,and indeed,I think I did nothing...
Quite failure...=(

So,I think,the presidents,pls change me away...

Haiz...
I am really sorry to be so useless to both CCAs...
Really sorry for those who really helped me alot de...

Really thks all my frenz!=)

I now gonna do the budget proposal for HI Club and send it to ShengLong...
Bye...

Take Care my frenz!=)

*Little encouragement from frenz can really motivates one to move on n to pick up their confidence...
Having confidence is good,but being over-confidence can b a fatal weakness...
It's tym for ppl to wake up their mind n SPEAK UP...=)

=Jac=

Laptop

Thursday, April 12, 2007 ( 3:42 AM )

Laptop

Omg...My laptop's sick now...=(
Haiz...
Dunno wat happened to it...=/

Btw...
Ytd,I LS,then nvr go to BAOC...N I oso overslp tt day too...
Feel sick n jelly jelly de...

Well...
Though I LS,but I still eat alot...

Hmm...
Ytd morning,my dad saw me,n he suddenly said," U look more fatter n fatter hor,how u gain weight huh? Teach me leh,eat chocolate? I cant grow fatter leh..."
Wat de...
I noe I am VERY FAT,but dun have to suan me early in the morning rite?
LoL...
Watever...

N my bro oso said tt if he gt my fat,he will b very happy,cos he can train the fat into mucles...
Diao lor...

Hmm...
Cos of the two of them,I've decided from today onwards,muz starts to jian fei!
Long tym nvr exercise le,and I am tt type of ppl,who sick,still can eat alot de,keep having supper de...etc
Haiz...

Haha...
Well c,cos I am afraid I will not b tt determine...
Though last tym[Sec 1,2] I was ard 56kg,then I jian fei till 45kg[Sec3,4],now...
Back to fifties,now muz jian fei liao...
Haiz...

Kk...
Tok to you all nxt tym!=)
Recently gt lots of things to do...Tired!
Sian...=/

Take Care all my Frenz!=)
Jia you!
Gambatte!=)

=Jac=

Stayed up

Tuesday, April 10, 2007 ( 10:54 PM )

Stayed up...

I ytd went to have supper with cousins and then eat n slack n chat at 24 hrs coffee shop till morning then have breakfast,then I went to sch str...

Tt's means tt I nvr slp...
Then I reached sch at ard 9am,to meet HuiQi for ERS CCA Fiesta Booth things...
Then went for BAOC[Business & Accountancy Orientation Camp] at ard 10.30am...
Then I leave earlier for the HI Club CCA Fiesta/Choir performance rehearsal till ard 5.30pm...
Then I head to ERS Club Hse for helping them out in the CCA Fiesta Decorations.
I haven eat for the whole day...
Din slp at all too...

Then the moment I took bus hm,at ard 7pm,I slp till Hougang Interchange then change bus 161 to go hm...

Then I was really tired tt I am very hot tempered...
Then my laptop again gt problems lor,at sch already got,now come back hm still gt...
Keep auto shutdown...=/

Dun like my laptop to b "sick" leh...=(
Then I dun feel like eating...
Then after I bath,feel better...
Then I cooked Mee Hoon Kuey to eat...

Then I have to settle things for HI Club n ERS CCA Fiesta things...
Haiz...
I am now very confused and tired...

Gonna think abt HI Club things...
Gtg...
Bye!=)
Take Care!=)

=Jac=

Dun like tmr

Sunday, April 08, 2007 ( 11:41 PM )

Dun llike tmr...

Sian lor...
Gt many meeting tmr...=/

Morning gt BAOC meeting,9.45am...
Then gt ERS meeting at 10am at Jurong East Popular...
Then gt HI Club's Camp Comm meeting in sch at 11am...
LoL...
Sian,I reject goind for the ERS meeting...
Cant help...=/

Well,ytd oso very happy cos I gt a "Most Hardworking Intrepreter" prize...
I tot they may have made a mistake...=/
Cos I nvr been hardworking b4...=X

LoL...
Watever...
Actually...I dun like to chat ppl on msn hu,nvr end the conversation then leave the conversation de,hu like very late then reply to u when they r in their "online" mode...
Haiz...
I will become quite pissed off when tok to them...=/

Well I now gonna go watch my anime le...
Tok to u all tmr...=)

Take Care!=)

=Jac=

My Shoulder

Saturday, April 07, 2007 ( 11:18 PM )

My shoulder...

Today went for the Interpreter course,it's the last day...
But I am really tired...
Cos who ask me to go eat supper with my cousins,then we first rode bicycle to 24 hr coffee shop,then went to 24 hr Mac,then slack there for a while then go back to the coffee shop tt's near my hse de,then we had our breakfast,and by the tym I feel tired le,it's already 7am...

Then I rush back hm to bath n to go to sch...
Apparently,I din slp at all...
Then during the course,I was very sian n tired,no mood at all...=/
Then hor,I slept during lunch break,but couldnt slp cos gt too many interruptions...
Juz as I woke up hor,saw Carl walk into the classroom,then I think tt he's kind of angry of something or wat bah...He feels tt he's wasting his tym...Hmm...

I oso dunno lah,then today's performances are all quite ok n nice...
Then after performance,we gt prize giving ceremony...
I've gt the "Most Hardworking Interpreter" prize lor...
Then our grp gt the first for the amazing race tt was held ytd,we oso gt cash prize[$5]...

WanSin n the grp members,including me,decided tt we shall buy somethings to share with everyone lor...=)
The money now is with our treasurer...[a total of $8,including Wansin's best interpreter cash prize]=)

Then after the prize giving,the "ex ex" wanna hold a debrief for all of us...
Then they asked a lot of qns,only some of the members answered...
I was in a rush to work,thus,I ask them to let me go earlier at ard 4.15pm...

Then I met RuiXiang at the bus stop...
He's oso in HI Club...
Then,nvm,we took the same bus n though I am really very tired,I couldnt n dun dare to slp...
Cos RuiXiang sit beside me n...

He actually dozed off...
Keep lying on my shoulder lor...
This makes me squeezing myself nearer to the window till no more space for me to move in liao lor...
Then the bus suddenly stopped,then he woke up,then he apologized...

Then I said,"Nvm lah,u r juz being too tired nia mah..."
After saying,he dozed off again lor...
Haiz...
On my shoulder again lor...
Then hor...This tym round when he woke up,he took his hp,then type a msg n let me c...
"Your shoulder is very comfortable"

My reaction is,"er,I think is tt u too tired le,not my shoulder comfortable..."
Actually,I dun like ppl to touch me or wat de lor...
I feel very uncomfortable,even my parents nvr touch me de lor...
But I think becos he too tired le bah,then I nvr wake him up lor...
I am very sure tt I wun take the same bus with RX again le lor...

Hmm...
Then when I reached the working area,I serve the ctm until I can slp lor...
My manager still ask me to go n slp at the back lo...
I paiseh,then go wash my face n continued to work...
Now very tired...

Need to settle something n then go to slp,tmr still need to work from 2.30pm-10.30pm...

Take Care my Frenz! =)
Bye!

=Jac=

Interpreter Course

Friday, April 06, 2007 ( 10:55 PM )

Interpreter Course...

Today's first day for the HI Club Interpreter Course...
Enjoyed most when playing the "Ridiculous Amazing Race"...
The part I dislike is the part whereby everyone have to eat the Wasabi Sushi n drink the lime juice...
Dunno wat to say...
Sour,Hot...
Wat de...
I think it's bad cos if ppl having gastric pain or allergy to hot stuff or wat then how?=/

Well...
But today my group won the race...
Cos I muz say tt the clues are ok for us to guess...
In my group gt Wansin,Jasmine and ShengLong...
Haha...

Juz feel very happy cos we gt first...LoL...=)

K...
Now gonna type the scripts for tmr's performance and send them le...
Tmr is the last day for the course...
Need to meet 9am in sch...
Sian...
Need to wake up early...=/

Well...
Take Care everyone!=)
Jia you!

=Jac=

Thursday, April 05, 2007 ( 11:23 PM )

Disorder	Your Score
Major Depression:	Extremely High
Dysthymia:	High
Bipolar Disorder:	High
Cyclothymia:	Extremely High
Seasonal Affective Disorder:	High
Postpartum Depression:	N/A
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=Jac=

Lesbian...

( 7:29 PM )

Lesbian...

Today work morning shift...
I always use my hp to b my alarm clock...
But...
Ytd my hp low batt n I forgt to charge it...
Then today,I woke up late,late for work,kana very big scolding n warning...=(
Went hm at ard 3pm...

Haiz...
Nvm,well,today shall tok abt lesbian thing...

Bengawan Solo's Driver[Our stocks r being delivered from Woodland's factory to other branches de],she is an lady,hu looks like a man n wear like a man...
At first I work there,I was really surprised tt everyone of the staff called her "kor kor"...
I oso nvr ask them y n follow them to call her "kor kor"...
Cos I only tot that she was like me,like to b boyish nia,so I nvr think much...

Until today,then I realise tt...

Today,she was as usual,deliver the stocks to us...
She oso brought us our pay slip from HQ,then she ask me how much I earn,then I study in wat sch,wat CCA...etc
She was a very nice person,I muz say...
Then suddenly,she asked me a qns...
"Do u like a guy? Or do u like a gal,which is the same as me?"
She ask me this cos I oso very boyish n may b she tot I am butch,lesbian or wat bah...

Then my manager heard tt,she said,"Y u ask her this type of qns de?"
The driver mean no harm...She's always very str in her toking de...
Then I said,"Erm,I think I like guy bah..."

Then the driver asked again,"U nvr date b4 is it? Or u now got bf or wat?"
Then I say,"Er,ya,nvr date b4,now oso dun hav...Y u all like to ask this type of qns huh? Cos some of my fren oso will ask me...=/"

Then she answered,"Then mayb in future,u will b like me,like gals than guys...I am sorry for being so str in toking,if u r unhappy abt my way of expressing myself,pls bear with me..."

I am like,"Huh? Eh,ok lah..." [Cos I treat it as an auntie asking me,juz to concern abt me nia...]

After the driver went off to another place to deliver the stocks,I asked my manager...
"Jie,the driver is like gal wan huh?"
Jie,"ya,cos she gt too much male hormones,u dunno meh?"
Me,"Orh...Ok..."

LoL...
Now abit quite afraid of her sia...
Though she nvr offend me lah...
LoL...

Ha...
Will I be a "les" in future?
Hmm...
Ha...

Take Care all my frenz! =)

=Jac=

Being EMO

( 4:17 AM )

Being EMO recently...

Dunno y...
Juz feel quite sian n c everything bu shuang like tt...
Hmm...

Well...
I guess cos recently met alot of things...
Really happy abt ytd's rehearsal thing,cos we r like mostly done...=)

Then one more thing...
Recently dunno y,feel like appearing offline more than appearing online...
Juz feel like being alone these few days...
Juz wanna reflect myself and these few days at night,I tends to tok more rubbish...=/
Pls bear with me for toking nonsense...LoL...=)

After going out with my cousin to 7-11 to eat supper and slack till now then reach hm...
Heard alot more abt them,n oso said alot of things,relieved myself bah...=)

I wanna say to all my frenz tt,"Thank you all for bearing with me,I really feel very xin fu to have u all with me...=)"
Last few blog entries r juz being emo...
To allow me to tok rubbish de,now no more this kind of things le...=)

Cheerful n Happy Always...=)
To all my frenz!

Take Care...
Still gt to work morning shift tmr...Bye!=)
Btw,still haven practice my song signing...=X
Need to practice soon,mayb tmr bah...Hee...=X

=Jac=

Bought a bag n keychains today...

Wednesday, April 04, 2007 ( 2:35 AM )

Bought a bag n keychains today...

Went to mini toons today to buy a backpack cos mine was torn n long tym ago I feel like buying a new one le...
The bag costs me $39.95...
Personally I feel tt it's very ex...
But I like the design...
Then think tt I nvr buy such an ex bag b4,once in a while wun die de bah...

Then I go str to work after buying the bag...
Then by the tym I reached hm n check the bag happily,the bag gt some faulty part tt I wud like to change...
Intend to change it tmr or wat bah...=(

Haiz...
Sian...
I dunno y,after going to the TA05 trip,I feel tt I am tt type hu have many frenz but feel alone in my heart...

Like no one can really understand me...
I guess I juz need tym to get rid of this feeling...
I have tried my best to mix with u all le...
Give me some more tym...

Cos till now,I know deep inside my heart tt none of u treat me as a REAL fren bah...
The problem is with me bah...
I dunno how to get along with ppl bah...

Haiz...
Actually shld say tt no one had really c the true me...
The one tt u all din c...

Sorry everyone...
I was juz toking rubbish...
But I noe tt everyone sure have the same feeling as me in the past b4,the feeling tt you have all ur frenz with u but yet u still feel tt u r standing alone...

Juz like everyone is toking,u r quiet at a side,or when u r toking,ppl feel tt u r juz toking abt urself,boring...
I noe I keep toking abt my own stuff in front of u all,this makes u all very sian...
I noe I have alot of bad habits n I may b very irritating to u all...
Tt's wat I truly feel...

Wat is true fren?
I am still seeking for mine...

Sorry everyone,being emo for juz now...
Mayb too tired le,start to tok rubbish le,I'm sorry...

But I really hope tt everyone is happy,contented and well always!=)

Take Care all my frenz!=)
Bye...

*True fren is someone u will nvr forgt...=)

=Jac=

Sentosa-TA05 Trip

Monday, April 02, 2007 ( 11:07 PM )

Went to Sentosa today...
TA05 outing...
The attendance is like...Hmm...Only 8 of us came,then the number 9th-YH join us for a while and off to work...

Today spent ard $30...
Broke sia...
Went in the morning,we have our breakfast at the hawker centre then go Giant to buy things...
Then when we reached Sentosa,we first go to palawan beach to play volleyball n some lame games n all...
Then,we went to Siloso beach to take the Sky Ride...
Then after tt,we went back to Vivocity to catch a movie...

The movie is nice,I personally feel tt it's not bad...=)
The movie is "The number 23"...
Cos I din slp enough,I ytd slp only few hrs...Then this morning meet them liao,then go play till ard 4pm,then go catch the 4.40pm's movie...Too tired tt I dozed off at some part of the movie,but I still managed to watch 95% of the show...
Find the show quite nice...
Worth to watch...

LoL...
Then after the movie,the 8 of us went to have our dinner,then after dinner some left first,then the rest hang ard at VivoCity,window shop then we all go hm at ard 9.30pm or so bah...

Hmm...
Very tired,but I want to watch Death Note Movie 2...
LoL...

Sian sia,tmr need to go sch in the morning...
10am for HI Club meeting,then 11am for BA Envoys' meeting then 1pm muz leave sch tohead for work...
Work from 2.30pm-10.30pm tmr...

Haha...
A tiring today n tmr...
Many of them dio sun burn,but I'm ok...
Some of them still gt put lotion lo,but I dun nid...
My skin tone juz turn darker...LoL...

Watever...
I go watch my movie le...=)

Take Care my frenz!

=Jac=

Going or not?

( 2:41 AM )

Going or not?

Actually I am still thinking whether to go for the TA05 outing or not...
LoL...

Think will go bah...
Haiz...
I very sian oso...All of sudden,dunno y...juz feel very sian...
Many things happened and mostly good things lah...

Hope HI Club ppl can really solve their prob soon...
If not I am really afraid tt things will get worse n more difficult to solve...
N I think only they themselves can solve the prob among themselves...
I noe nothing abt it...
But gone thru tt meeting,feel tt they shld at least do something to solve this primary problem fast...
I think they r still being immatured in the way they handle this matter...=X

Hahs...
Watever...
Well...
Shant tok abt this...
I think they themslves r feeling more stress n hope to solve this as soon as possible than anyone else...
But...I really hoped tt HI Club can still be as happy as the past 3 days...

No matter is it only the surface thing,but I think...
I can only say tt,pls.pls face it and speak up...

Haha...
Watever...

LoL...
Ya,I forgt to say something ytd...
After the course n I went to the bus stop with my frenz n wait for bus...
Gt an Army man...
Dunno y hor...
Walk to me...
Then I thought he wanna ask me for directions or wat,so I looked at him too,and ask,"yes?"
He smiled at me and walked away!

I am stunned lor...
My frenz saw it too...Feel tt the man is crazy de...
Then I continue to chat with the 2 of them...
Hu noes,my fren told me tt the man is still looking at me from far lor...
Then nvm,the man still walk to n fro my side,like trying to get my attention like tt,then when I turn to him,he smiled n walked away lo...=/

Diao lor...
Haha...Watever...
Then my fren said," Mayb becos of ur hair,looks funny,then man walk n c if u r a ..."
Diao lo...

Heez...
Watever...
Today,gt my pay...wrong amt,they gave me less...
Then not enough to buy a hp...
Sian...
I am thinking tt I shld juz dun go for the TA05 outing...
But I am thinking it's the last outing....
Shall go bah...

I am now very sian...
Got lots of things to do...
CCA Fiesta is coming...
Gt to buy things and start for 2 CCAs' booth decor...
Haiz...Very bz...
Then still gt another CCA's Recruitment Drive to publicize oso...
Very bz n sian...
But cant help...

Sorry everyone,I said b4 dun write unhappy things in my blog,now write again...=(

Take Care everyone!=)

Going to 7-11 to grab something to eat...=)

=Jac=