Lets forget the negatives!

Is it coincidence?

Sunday, April 25, 2010 ( 8:56 PM )

Is it coincidence?

Recently I'm having high fever, even my lowest temperature was 37.3 Degree Celsius, nothing lower than that...

Even god is hinting me, wanna tell me something bad is coming...

So my aunt passed away.

Bye, RIP my aunt.

=Jac=

My aunt just passed away.

( 8:19 PM )

She released herself from this world, this society.

She left us to a place far away.

She has nothing to fear, she's in the heaven, waiting for us to join her one day.

Hope this is what she really wants.

I wanna ask her,"Why take life so lightly? You may be responsible for ur life, but why leaving us behind?"

=Jac=

Recently like Olivia Ong's song - You and Me

( 12:44 AM )

Olivia Ong's Song - You and Me is nice...

Taking 1 step at a time walking hand in hand, 1 2 3 4 cheek to cheek...

=Jac=

Fever fever go away...

( 12:27 AM )

Having high fever from 21 April evening till now...

It went on and off...
Cough, sore throat, running, headache, backbone, shoulder and neck muscle ache, all in.

Feeding panadol and those other medicine tt the doctor prescribed, it's juz doesn't seem to help much...

Eating panadol like it's candy and my fever still come back to me...=/

Ya, when I see doctor on the 22 April morning, I gt MC from the doctor, but I still went back office to work.

It's quite sad.

Notwithstanding the above, I guess Sunday I still has to report to office to finish my work, cos need to hand in by Monday and client request to have it by Tuesday.

1 word to describe wat I'm going through, "HELL"...=X

I gonna go take my medicine n go slp already, hope I'll recover by Sun morning!

Goodnight my frenz!
Take care all~

=Jac=

我的努力并不够。。。

Saturday, April 10, 2010 ( 11:48 PM )

我的努力并不够。。。

我一直努力赚钱想让家人过得好一点，可是，我好像离终点还有一段距离。。。

我的肩，随着岁月，不知不觉的增加了许多担子。。。

我只能一直走下去，我别无选择，没有回头路。

不知曾几何时，我忘了痛要说，累要休息，我忘了要快乐的笑，我也忘了哭。

我只记得，我得保护我自己，不能软弱。。。

拿自己开玩笑，把自己当玩笑/小丑，自愚娱人，开别人玩笑等等，来逗别人开心/笑。

我像只螃蟹，又肥有丑，横行霸道，有很硬的外壳，有力的蟹钳来保护自己。

好强，爱面子，尖酸刻薄，不会温柔，不懂得撒娇，也很auntie，是个，彻彻底底，名符其实的“女人中的男人” （a.k.a 男人婆）

（但在美女面前，我会对她们很好，我自觉不及她们，自己好像丫鬟，她们好像公主，她们好像是应该好好的被人照顾一样。。。）

我不需要裙子，长发和男友。

在我患上忧郁症时，我早就没有了生存下去的意义，我的存在只是为了能让家人过得好一点。

以前一些事让我对男生感到失望，再说，我长得可是非常丑的，因此，我对爱情没有任何期望。

正当人人都在说我应该怎么样，应该改变什么的时候，又有谁会知道我为什么会变成今天这样，又有谁会试着了解我呢？

连家人和朋友也这样想，那还会有人了解我吗？

人只会放大别人的缺点，何时会记得别人的优点呢？

像我这种人，不适合，不能谈恋爱。

我应该全神贯注的投入工作与即将报读的课程上，我要赚很多钱，我想环游世界，我像增广见闻充实自己！

我要学着爱我自己，保护自己，了解自己。

=Jac=

Once believed tt one does not need friends.

( 2:23 PM )

Once believed tt one does not need friends.

=Jac=