Lets forget the negatives!

GST Rush...

Saturday, June 30, 2007 ( 10:11 PM )

GST Rush...
Many ppl chiong to shopping mall for the last call of "5%" GST rate...

Today went to do proj,reached hm at ard 5.30pm...
After rest a while,went to Compass Point to look out for my "Wanted" Hp...
Sony Ericsson W810I...

I long to buy this hp since my bro had his...
He gt white one,I wanted black de...

Sian...Today although went to the Hello!Shop,but the queue is too long tt I cant buy oso...
Sian,may buy tmr,or may not...
If I buy,I will be REALLY POOR this entire month...
Dunno wat to do...

But I really hope can get this hp b4 my birthday de...
Think this wish have to postpone liao...

K lah,after eating this n that at Pasar Malam,I am quite full liao...
"deriT" liao...

I go slp le...
Tmr then chiong FIT Proj,cos do wrongly,gonna re-do...

Bye my frenz...
Take Care!
*Anyone wan to work as a Kitchen staff at Compass Point Pizza Hut,pls contact me...=)

=Jac=

Disappointment

Thursday, June 28, 2007 ( 12:28 AM )

The disappointment...

I am really disappointed by my doings...
Y cant I b more hardworking and more intelligent/wise?

My common test results...[SUCKS]
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I vowed that I will never cry...
But I cried more as I grew older...
I tot I am old enough,not to cry over things,but I just cant help it,the tears keep rolling down...

I actually feel like crying today,this afternoon...
It was Ivy tt keep me away from crying,cos she keep asking me,"R u ok?"
I dun wan n will not cry in front of ppl,so,of cos nvr cry...

I cried when I reached hm after work...

Alone...
Silent...
Reflect...

I cried becos I am regret.
Regret for not putting in effort on my sch works, feel disappointed becos I wasnt able to b a good daughter, feel stupid and useless,becos,I wasnt like tt in the past,I juz cant return to the old Jaclyn...

I noe tears wun let me pass my exams,tears dun gain me anything...
I deserved to be look down on...
Serve me rite!

I noe...I shall stand up after I fall...
But...
How can it be done???

THE END...

=Jac=

Just so you know...

Monday, June 25, 2007 ( 7:04 PM )

=Jac=

Student Leader Seminar

Friday, June 22, 2007 ( 10:27 PM )

Finally,today the student leader seminar ended...
Cant rest yet,gonna chiong BLAW n FIT proj le...

Sian...

Gt 3 jobs now,Bengawan Solo Service Crew,Anlene Operator/promoter and being a Pri 4 kid's Chinese Tutor...
When I was young,one of my ambition was to become a Chinese,Math teacher,now really sort of realising it wor...

Haha...
Enjoyed the seminar also,today was late lah,cos LS ytd and oversleep this morning... =/

Tmr going for BA Envoys Camp c c...
LoL...C if I can help in any ways...
=)

Ok lah,I juz gt hm after giving Leon tuition...
Over-run today[Tuition]...
Tired...

Tok to u all tmr! =)
Bye...
Take Care all my frenz!

=Jac=

Fatty...

( 1:13 AM )

I am a shorty cum fatty...

Sian...
Yesterday went for Student Leader Seminar[at Sentosa],representing HI Club...
Eat alot of stuff as usual and I knew I am growing MORE n MORE fatter...
Haiz...

I was once 45kg,now...Haiz...=(

Watever...
Gt to chiong many proj recently or mayb I gt many things to do bah...
Ltr still got to attend the 2nd part of the SLS,this tym round in NP,den afer tt will go teach tuition at yishun,den go hm to chiong proj...

Sian,I hope I can dun slp forever...
I hope I gt infinity amt of energy...

Take Care my frenz...=)

=Jac=

Problems with me or?

Wednesday, June 20, 2007 ( 2:27 AM )

Are the problems with me or?

Recently,erm,nope,mayb not tt recent,I already feel tt some friends are juz not tt nice to b with...

I always tot I am the one too particular abt small matters...etc
But I really feel tt,being a fren,the most impt and basic thing would b RESPECT,aint it?

I dunno wat to say,but the basic courtesy,isnt it Respect?
Do u even noe?--To a particular person...

Well...
I now only feel very very fed up by someone,erm,nope,by 3 particular person...
No need to name them...

Mayb the problems are with me,not the others,I think mayb I am juz being too sensitive,but I really care,even if they are insignificant.

Watever...

Today went to get indemnity form from Wansin,went to her hse to take fom her[Bkt PanJang], den went back to sch,den go sport complex there,to put the forms into Ms Leong's pigeon hole...

Den went to do BLAW Proj,celebrate HweeYim's b'dae @ CCK...
Den after tt went to Mac at Lot1 to have lunch...
Den went hm[SengKang] to put my lappy and set off to Yishun to give tuition to a Pri 4 kid...

After everything is ard 9pm,went to hav dinner,den went hm...
Den slack till now...

Saw 2 HIs today,dun understand some signings...looks chim to me...
Haha...
Dunno y,juz feel happy to c HIs,but oso fear to c them...
Cos of low self-confidence/self-esteem?

K,tt's all for today...
Gtg...

Bye my Frenz,Take Care Everyone! =)

=Jac=

This World

Sunday, June 17, 2007 ( 5:58 PM )

This world...

Really enjoyed ERS Camp[13-15Jun,3D2N for main comm],finally,everything went smooth and all...
I really muz apologized that I had to go home cos I am not feeling well on the 2nd night...
I knew I've caused a lot of trouble to everyone,thks everyone!
Then went back to the ERS Camp on the 3rd day morning to join them for the events...
Den after camp break,helped to clean the areas and brought things back to club hse...
ERS really awesome!

Den went over to HI Club Training Camp...

Ytd juz finish HI Club Training Camp...[15,16Jun,not overnight de]
I am really surprised cos I always tot it will b a tekan session by the alumni but I was wrong...
Really enjoyed the camp,but was abit sad cos I din get to attend the first day's camp before 5pm...

However,I learnt from this camp that communication is really impt...
Any mis-interpretation or mis-communication can cause really alot of unhappiness and misunderstanding...

The camp,the only thing tt I am not happy about is the Fire Drill thing,even though I nvr said any vulgarities in front of the others in the past before,I said,"C...B..." tt moment...
To me,a person who had not enough slp,vexed by many personal things and still gt to c things so unorganised,juz cant help but made the comment...
I nvr think tt I was wrong, I WILL NOT TAKE BACK MY WORDS oso,cos I really think tt I am not at fault...

I agree wat Wansin and Liting said,mis-communication...
But tt tym I really feel that I am not wrong...
I see no point to take back my words...
Well...
Watever...Forgt it...

After the camp break[ard 7.30pm],we went to Kismis to have our BBQ session...
Fun,laughter and all...
Wish Wansin Happy Birthday...

Den I din eat anything at all since lunch ytd,also din eat at the BBQ session...
Dun feel like eating...
Den played the swing,while swinging,feel like slping...Haha...
Mayb tired,mayb felt disappointed...
No lah,cos I actually think,no one actually show their real face of one another...

The gathering,like the others,like all other millions of gatherings,who show the real face to the other?
All wore mask,fake smile,fake laughter?
Are they really enjoy themselves or are they juz trying to blend with the others?

Who really can c thru their mind?

Tt BBQ session let me c alot of things,those being left out,those being the limelight...
Who noes,who cares?

I oso dunno wat I am trying to convey to u all,but...

I juz feels that some things aren't easy to see or solve...
Anw,HI Club Rox...

Gt to be bz again...
U all oso take care ah,beware of tt dengue fever spread...

Jia you everyone...

*What you see may not be the same as what you hear,may not be the same as wat you know...

=Jac=

The 2 weeks break

Saturday, June 16, 2007 ( 1:05 AM )

My schedules for the 2 weeks BREAK...

7 Jun-Last paper[Cost Accounting]...

8 Jun-Work @ Bengawan Solo [9.30am-10.30pm]
9 Jun-Work @ Bengawan Solo [2.30pm-10.30pm]
10 Jun-Work as Anlene Operator [6.30am-1.00pm]
11 Jun-Work @ Bengawan Solo [3.30pm-10.30pm]
12 Jun-Work @ Bengawan Solo [3.30pm-10.30pm]
13-15 Jun-ERS Camp[Overnight,but I went hm on 2nd night cos I'm sick,went back on the 3rd day morning till 5pm,when the camp ends,den move over to HI Club Training Camp...]
15,16Jun-HI Club Training Camp[Not overnight,but in sch till ard 9.30pm]

18 Jun-Work @ Bengawan Solo/FIT Project Meeting
19 Jun-BLAW Project Meeting & Working as a Chinese Tutor @ nite[7pm...]
20 Jun-HI Club Camp Committees Meeting
21,22 Jun-Student Leader Seminar

**Actually there's BA Envoys Camp on 20,21,22 June,it's juz tat the above stated events' notices reach me b4 I knew that there's a BA Envoys Camp...

*I only regret that I din go for BA Comm camp which falls on 11,12,13 June and also...
Can't attend BA Envoys Camp for now cos everything juz clash together...=/
Hope the organizers will understand...=s

Tt's the reason y I nvr blog recently...
Well,I gtg,gt to slp n wake up early ltr,5.30am...
If not cant reach sch on time for HI Club Training camp[Muz reach by 7.50am]...

Well,Take Care all my frenz...=)

=Jac=

My memories...

Sunday, June 10, 2007 ( 4:43 PM )

My memories...

I only rmb when I was young,I think I am still quite obedient,always trying my best to be the one my parents would be proud of...
Best conduct and all...

I hate ppl crying in the past and I dun cry even if I fall...
But dunno y...
I tend to cry when I grew older and as I grew older,was it becos I've changed and became weaker?
Yes,I am.

The confidence,responsible,cheerful and obedient gal was gone...

I cried,I regret for not being able to return to the gal I used to be.
I cried,now being too easily to let the situations to overcome me.
Cry becos I feel hopeless,useless and all...
Pessimistic thinking came to me,dunno y.

But from now onwards,no more tears.
I swear.
No more tears no matter wat happened.
No more sadness on my face,no more tears from me,no more worries from me,no more negative tots from me.

Be positive.

I really hoped to return to the past.

From now onwards,no matter what I will go thru,I will be the same as the past:
Face it,Accept it,Learn from it.
I will not fear to make mistakes,as long as I learn my mistakes from them.

Hope everyone too.

Take care everyone! =)

I am not tired at all.=)
Thks for concern!

Gambate everyone!

=Jac=

Problems...

Friday, June 08, 2007 ( 4:33 AM )

Problems...

Sian...
Need to pay sch fees liao...
Need to see doctor in June n July also...
All need money...
CCAs' camp...etc

Now lappy also crazy de,think tio virus,tt's y will auto shut down de...

Haiz...
Although juz after common test,wasnt abit happy at all cos I noe I sure cant score well and...
These are my schedule for the first week of holiday...

8,9 June - Bengawan Solo [9.30am-10.30pm]
10 June - Anlene Promoter [6.15am-ard 3.30pm]
11,12 June - Benagawan Solo and Proj meeting
13,14,15 June - ERS Camp
15,16 June - [After ERS,go over to HI Club Training Camp]

[2nd Week,New job...I will have to be a tutor teaching a primary 4 sch kid Chinese...]

Tired sia...
HI Club Training Camp still have to collect $10 from me on the first day of camp for the camp fee...
Sch fee oso not cheap...

NEED MONEY!!!

$_$

Haiz...
K,I juz wake up,Gonna go watch my FAVORITE ANIMEs!
[Dunno y my lappy now ok again...Haha...]

Bye...
Take Care my Frenz! =)

=Jac=

Kill me pls...

Monday, June 04, 2007 ( 10:14 PM )

Kill me pls...

I dunno if it's my fault or any other ppl's fault...
No matter wat,the burden doesnt decrease at all...
Y is it tt I have to feel stressed over all these bills and etc?

Okok...
I noe I am not capable,not able to study well,not able to earn tt much of money,not hardworking enough,not obedient enough,not healthy enough...
But wat else can I do?

Sleeping less than wat a normal ppl should have,holding as many jobs as I can...
Trying to reduce the burden of urs,isnt tt enough?
Mayb not enough,tt's y I have to blame everything to myself here...

Well,now is exam period,but my timing of everything is juz so wrong...
Slp at 9pm,wake up at 2am,study till morning 6am,slp again and wake up again...
This way of studying makes no diff to whether I had studied or not,cos nothing went into my brain...

I still gt IFA,BLAW,COST to go...
I dun wan to flunk...

My grandpa oso wish I can get "A's"...
[I pay him a visit recently,tt's wat he told me when he asked me how I cope with everything...]
Frankly speaking,I had nvr got an "A" since first yr,first sem...
I oso wish to get "A"...Who wouldnt?

The insomnia made me so tired in the morning and afternoon till evening,but awake in late night...
[Tt's y my face is black and sian most of the time...]

Haiz...

Crying every night over the stress that overcome me...

Goodbye my frenz...

=Jac=