Lets forget the negatives!

Free

Wednesday, January 31, 2007 ( 3:22 PM )

Free...

Yay!!!

Firsty,I want to apologise to Ivy for my poor attitude,and wanna apologise for being irresponsible to my group...

Ytd I am in rush to TanTockSengHosiptal...

I am there to get my report...

I believe I am really "Suay" ytd...
Cos I fell on the stairs at the over head bridge there and many ppl saw it,very ps...
Haiz...Luckily it din bleed,only bruises...but...my laptop dropped lo...Now still can use but the colour looks REALLY different at times...A bit crazy...

Then I took the bus to Clementi MRT then to Novena Square then finally reach the TTSH...

I made it juz in time...
My appointment was 4pm...
When I first enter in the rm...
The doctor asked me,"Have u been eating ur medicine?"
I replied,"Yes."
Then the doctor say again,"U sure? U missed the last appointment and I suppose u do not have enough medicine to last till today hor..."

Oops...

Then I answered,"Ya,I have been eating,but for the past 2 weeks I finished the medicine and so I din eat for the past 2 weeks...=X"

The doctor act angry and say if I were to miss my appointment or postpone it,he will make me c him every month...[He very evil hor...]

Then I smile lo...

He then tok with another doctor and they discuss and before I want to say I do not wish to eat the medicine he prescribed to me as it gt alot of side effect, he started off with,"I think U can dun eat the medicine le,ur case is not that serious and I think I'll stop th medicine on u and check ur condition after 6mths again,to confirm u do not need the medicine and to follow up on ur case..."

Yay!!!I dun have to eat tt medicine le...[Tt medicine really gt lots of side effects lo...]
And I also finally dare to ask the doctor after seeing him for over 1 yr[going to 2 yrs le]...

He,as usual,use "chim" terms to tok to me,then I give him the "blur" look then he says that...[Haha,cant tell u all...]

Nvm,he says if the nxt tym I c him I am ok le then I will have to c him once a yr...
But he emphasize,"But if u missed the test and appointment again,I will make sure u c me every month..."
Haha...
I dun wan to c him sia,juz by seeing him cost me over $25 bucks lo...

Luckily,I finally can dun spend my money on medicine...haha...[The medicine gt many side effects and still so ex lo...ard $30 per mth...]

Luckily,this was settled...
Then...

Another problem I meet is the Modem prob!!!
The Singnet technical ppl tell me tt my internet is ok,is my modem prob,ask me to call the modem ppl,then I called the modem ppl,they tell is not their product prob but is my laptop's prob...Diao
I juz reformat my laptop not long and it is working perfectly ok lo!!!

Haiz...Who can teach me wat to do now?
I keep calling the 1610 hotline but no use lo,keep asking me to wait...
Aiyo,I dunno wat to do...

Thks for everyone's concern...
Now using internet in sch...Gonna go work...
Bye...
All the best for our exam...

=Jac=

President & Vice President

Sunday, January 28, 2007 ( 1:17 AM )

Yay,finally the new elected president and vice president was set...

Haiz...I now at my cousin hse using internet,my modem prob still haven solve yet...

Thks Ivy and HuiJun...

LoL...

Congrats to WenLin[President] and HanJie[V. President] of Environmental Ranger Society[ERS]

Haha...

It was finalised on Friday night[26Jan]...LoL...The meeting drag till very late,like ard 9pm like tt,then I reached hm only at ard 11pm lo...
Haiz...

Tt night, also HI Club Certificate Ceremony night,I am surprised tt my IAC tutor really accept our invitation and came down to watch our performance...

But,regret...Cos the HI Club performances were a really bad one...
Even the senior[ex-HI Club member] also said tt it was a bad one...Cos...Haiz...

Btw,WenSi helped me to take my cert and I remember I still owe her $2...LoL...
Muz remember to return her on Mon...LoL...

Haha...
Forget all negative and all unhappiness!!!

New yr,new hope...Hope everything's fine this yr!!!

Btw,I haven finish the DVD "The Sound Of Music"...Last time went to sch library with Rose and Caroline but becos Channel 5 always show then I always missed its last part,tt's y feel like watching,then in the end cos tt day I gt to work,I still din manage to finish it...

Haha...
If gt time I will go and borrow and watch again de...

Haiz...
Dunno y I feel so tired and have no motivation to move on[Study]...
Sian...
Muz Gambate with u ppl,if not I will be left alone...
Haha...Frankly speaking,I am very zi bei de,I am lack of self confidence,but now I found ways to make me pick up my confidence,tt is,to find true frenz,and I have made it cos I have found TA05!

I love TA05!!!
Haha...Gambate...Muz try to find ways to let me concentrate on studies...

=Jac=

Money

Friday, January 26, 2007 ( 9:28 AM )

Money money money...

Haiz...We live for money or money live for us?

Watever...

Wanna say,I am really poor...
Sian...

I like chocolate...
Bought ytd after I gt my pay...LoL...
Thought would be a happy day for me...Who noes...

Forget it...
Juz now took shuttle bus with Samantha to sch...
Tot I can slp,as expected,same as the past 2 times,I cant cos she keep toking to me...

I wanna watch anime...
Naruto ep 188, Bleach ep 23, Death Note ep 4, Prince of Tennis ep 12...etc
No time sia...

Ltr gt HI Club Closing Ceremony at LT 73A, from 6pm to ard 7.30pm...
Gt performance,u all can come down n watch de...LoL...
I ltr half way need to go for ERS clubhse,cast my vote to vote for President and V.President n Main comm...

Hope I can be one of the main comm...LoL...

Kk...now gt to go do my MAEC tutorial le...Ltr dio Mrs Ng Mun Kit scold then I die...
Haha...

Take care all my frenz!=)
New year is rd the corner,so muz really take care! [Btw,I still haven finish spring cleaning my rm... =X]

=Jac=

Modem

Monday, January 22, 2007 ( 7:29 PM )

Haiz...

Recently my modem gt prob,cant use internet...

I've gt a quote for my grpmates...
"We do things as a grp,not solo one-man show,there is no difference among us,dun feel different or lower than one another,pls..."

I am really mad at XX hu really very insensitive towards ppl's feeling and very sensitive towards ppl's comment...

Watever,forget it...

LoL...I now still in sch using internet...
Juz finish my SAM...

Btw,I haven eat since ytd night...
Dunno y,dun feel hungry at all,but really feel very tired...
Slpt at 4am ytd,wake up 7am,almost late for lecture today morning,tt's y Iwear like auntie today...LoL...

I wanna thks Ali baba Rose Lee ChunHui here,"10 Q for ur highlighter and note pad..."
LoL...
Thks for ur encouragement...Thks for ur support...

I like TA05...
I now very tired...
Going hm...
Will slp and chiong IAC...

Tmr oso gt to work...
Bye...

Take care,my frenz...
Gambate together...=)

I wun feel sad le,cos gt u all...

=Jac=

That man...

Saturday, January 20, 2007 ( 3:38 PM )

I love my mother and my brother.

I love raining day...
No one will noe that I am crying in the rain becos of the raindrops...

A man,USED me for over 17yrs,his lies,his dotes,his act,his words,everything...etc
Is he still trustworthy?
I dun trust him anymore,I am scared,I am afraid I will fall again as I did in the past...
He's the one hu gave me confidence and the one who took it away...
He teach me all theory,he teach me life experiences,he gave me knowledges...
I am mentally older than my actual age...
He gamble,smokes,drinks and borrow money from many ppl…

I feel very weak...
No one will ever understand the pain and life I am going through...
Hu would not want to go out with frenz?
Hu would not want to throw all the worries and burden away?

I am human...

A little bit of encouragement from my frenz make me move...
But...
I realised that I was a fool,
I never will be able to be side by side with my fren,neither can I lead them nor follow them...

I am in total different situation with you all,you all wun understand unless you all tried it...

I have to wake up early to go sch[6am]...
Go for school and work till 11plus then reach hm...
Banned to use the laptop till very late,not much tym for me to study,I have no choice to slp...

Family affairs I gt when I reach hm from work,worries accompany to bed...
Tired body and mind accompany me to school...
I cant think well...

The burden is very big...Y cant I c the man putting his effort in changing the family to a better life?

Y is my burden as heavy as a working adult?

How can I drop my burden and worries?
-No,I cant.

I tot of killing myself,but I still got lots of things to do,my tutorials,works,duties...
I need to be responsible for all these...
I cant die yet...

The solution I tot...
-Quit school and work whole-heartedly

I do not want to drop school but the man's act seemed to force me to...

I carry worries with me,whenever and wherever I go...
How can you all understand?

I vent my anger thru hitting my fist at the wall,I vent my stress thru this method...

I am actually cheerful,I am happy with my lifestyle now...Really...
But dunno y...
Deep inside myself,no one knows,not even my family or even my close frenz...

The true self that you all nvr c b4,was feeling sad and down...
U all will nvr c...

I gt lots of bills to settle for my family,I am really in need of money…

A man suppose to have pride and hold the responsibilities to support his family,no matter how hard it will be…But in this case,I din c it…

I gtg…Really tired,though I slp fpr very long recently,I still feel slpy…

Bye…Sorry to throw so many unhappiness in my blog…I love my mother and my brother.

=Jac=

No internet connection

Sunday, January 14, 2007 ( 3:40 AM )

I very suay recently...

I love rainy day,cos no one will c my tears in the rain...

LoL...

I kay kiang, last min change my MAeC test's Ans...I am actually rite,but I think too much...then go change ans...

Haiz...Not jux tt,alot of things cork up lo,I dun wan to say le...I now at my cousin's hse...using internet lo,cos i am so suay tt even my internet connection oso gt prob...

Hell...

I wanna die...
Still gt lots of things to do...MYOB,BCA,BMGT,IAC...etc...

Haiz...

PS: I wanna tell Rose tt,"Mayb there is some misunderstanding btw the both of us or am I thinking too much,u r avoiding mi...I dunno,juz gt strange feeling...

I think we need to tok...

I very tired le...

No energy to concern too much,if I gt any where offended u all [my frenz], pls tell mi,pls 4give mi...

GTG...

Bye...

=Jac=

TTSH

Monday, January 08, 2007 ( 10:20 PM )

Woke up 8am this morning,went to Tan Toc Seng Hospital...

Draw 2 tube of blood,the needle is as thin as a sewing needle,poke into my left arm...
Muhaha...
Then the nurse is trying to distract me by toking to me,but I keep looking at the needle lo,I c how she poke,how she quickly find the tube,how she draw my blood and how she end it,basically,the whole process...
Haha...I curious mah,though not the first tym drawing blood,but everytime I draw my blood I will look through the whole process de...

Haha...

The missy is very funny lo,she said to me,"Ur name is very good leh, short form for "Jacqueline", easy to write and this is the firt time I encounter this name..etc"
Muhaha...
Watever...

The whole journey at TTSH took me 1 and a half hr.
I left TTSH at ard 10.45am...
Took MRT to sch...Then,finally rushed to library to meet my BCA group mates...
Haha...

Actually I am very tired after drawing my blood,a bit giddy and I eat nothing from 8am till 1pm...
My arm is painful when touch it,but now ok le...
I am actually very tired,but I still gt the energy,dunno from where to allow me to stay awake for long hrs,by toking alot...LoL...

Then after BCA presentation, a not very good one, I went to Bukit Timah Centre to eat with Ivy,Rose,Yuan Qin,Hwee Yim and Zhen Jie...
We took pic...Video...Haha...We had fun then...

Wanna thks HuiJun's group for changing timeslot with my group,thks...

LoL...
Then after eating,time pass quickly lo, already 4plus...Rose,Yuan Qin, Zhen Jie and me when back to sch,Rose went printing her notes,the three of us went to library to "study"...

Though not first time heard Yuan Qin say "study",but as expected...
I slp in library...
Zhen Jie went to do his proj,then Yuan Qin "self-study",then she say will as me qns after she read the notes...
Then I dozed off while I wrote my notes...

By the time I woke up,ZJ came back from his proj to meet Yuan Qin...
Then we continue to do our own thing,I watch youtube...etc...
Then...Yuan Qin and me heard some very "nice" voice...[ZJ is singing!!!]

Watever...
Then ard 7pm,we went off...

I saw Marvin when on bus...Said "hi" to him then look outside the window,night scenery is still as beautiful as before...

I dozed off on bus too...
Reached Hougang Central,then go buy batteries for my camera and my cousin's MP3...
Bought chocolate milktea and finished it asap...[Very thirsty]
LoL...

Then reached hm...Even though still feel very tired,cos ytd 2am then slp[do grp leader report for BCA...]

Now gonna do proposal for IAC and LMS...I very tired...Suddenly feel sleepy...
I think I slp le then tmr do lo...

Bye my frenz...

Confucius:"Learn but do not think is fruitless, Think but do not learn is dangerous..."

=Jac=

Crying for help from the heaven

( 12:52 AM )

Crying for help from the heaven...

I am really tired...
Finished the LMS Video clips making...
Including Subtitle...
Finished BCA...

Still gt LMS report,IAC report n interviewing,BMGT report,MAEC ppt,MYOB...etc
I feel very weak,not good enough to stay in the competition...I feel like quitting sch,I dun have the qualities to stay in here...
I think I may consider dropout...Rose will surely say I dun dare,but...
I will,juz tt I cant bear TA05 and my CCAs n my Frenz...

I am considering...

Sorry to everyone...
Sorry...
Really Sorry...

Thks HuiJun,Stephanie,Caroline,CaiQuan and WeiJun.
Thks for letting my grp to change timeslot with ur grp.
10 Q all...

I am sorry to my groupmates...
I noe I am not a good leader...I am sorry tt u all have under my grp...
I am failure...
Fail to do my jobs well in many ways...
I noe you all have a lot of unhappiness in the group itself,mainly due to my poor leading and managing...

I am really sorry.

I am a jinx.

I am "suay" enough...
I did not send the skills review for unit L & M cos 4gt...That's still ok,cos it's my prob...
But...
I 4gt need to send the PBL part 1 and 2 too...
My fault...
My fault...
Sorry...
Sorry...

Me to blame,my fault,I'm a failure...

I am now going to write group leader report le...
Ltr morning I will be going to Tan Tock Seng Hospital le...
Will miss FFA lecture.

I am sorry...
Sorry to tt lecturer too...

BA Envoys oso...
I am sorry to BA Envoys ppl...
Especially the three of you...
The mis-communication,the poor planning,the poor banner/poster design and everything...
I am sorry...Really sorry...

Causing the postpone of BA Envoys Recruitment Drive...
My Fault,me to blame...

I am sorry...

Sorry...

Sorry........='(

Bye my frenz...

=Jac=

Kopi Shop

Friday, January 05, 2007 ( 10:45 PM )

LoL...

Went to Coffee shop with my cousin...Then as I rode bicycle to the desination,I saw my ex-classmate[Victor Ho]...
He changed his hairstyle,look very different,almost cant recognise him...LoL... =)

Haha...Then after small tok,I went quickly to look for my cousin,I had supper withmy cousin n his fren then we went home after "kieng gai"...LoL...Reached hm at ard 2am...

Haha...Very tired ytd...Then I lazy,think do MAEC tutorial n ppt today morning...
But I slp till quite late-8am...
Then I quickly bath n start doing tutorial and I 4gt the time,tot will be late for sch thus I immediately pack my things n dash out of my hse...
I wore hm clothes today,all my classmates tot I look very weird today,cos I dun usually wear short and slipper to school de...I looked as if I am going to neighboring shop...

LoL...
Wat ever it is...
Today gt back my papers...
I din do tt well,but to my surprise,I tot I will fail my BCA but I did not and I do well for that,I am really happy...
LoL...The other modules,I think I need to buck up lo...

Then I ytd gt my hair cut,my classmates oso feel tt my hair style is very short,but I think it's juz ok nia lo...
Haha...

Watever...
Today,I feel tt TA05 is actually a very bonded class lo...Dunno y,juz feel this way...

LoL...
Tmr still gt to go Tan Tock Seng Hospital then go to sch for proj...
Sian,but I am happy as I noe projects gonna done by tmr...Yay...Hope so!!!

LoL...
Bye,I go watch my anime le...
*I like Mrs Ng Mun Kit...She's a strict n nice tutor...Remember,nvr call her teacher,muz call her Mrs Ng...Haha =)

=Jac=

HP spoiled...

Tuesday, January 02, 2007 ( 12:28 AM )

Haiz...

My handphone spoiled le...From now on,pls dun sms,pls dun call me,I may not b able to see ur msg and cant reply to u all...
Sorry for inconvenience...Thanks for ur understanding...

Haiz...Recently very sian,work n watch anime,really slack,dun feel like doing sch work...Haiz...

Can u all tell me where is my "motivation"...Haiz...
I really sian now...Recently work place there gt lots of customer,everyday bz till siao n the pay rate is still like tt,very low,even for holiday...Wat de...

Haiz...Tmr work morning,gtg...Bye my fren...
Take care...=)

=Jac=