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Is Accounting Good or Bad?

Wednesday, February 21, 2007 ( 3:12 AM )

Is accounting good or bad?

When I went tomy grandparents' hse to celebrate CNY on the first day,my relatives said tt I looked more "cao lao" le...[Mature if were to said in a nicer way...]
Anw,my auntie once told me tt I've made the wrong choice to go into the course "Diploma of Accountancy"...
Then on CNY first day,my uncle told me it's a good choice,n he said tt there demand market in Singapore for Accountancy...
Haiz...Differnt ppl gt different views,even myself also hestitating on changing cos or even drop from sch...=X

I haven go to the temple to "bai tai sui" yet,mayb this Fri or Weekends will go bah...
Dunno yet,muz c my mum lo...

Actually I wanna say something abt myself,n after saying this,I am gonna head towards the future,let bygone be bygone...
I am gonna change myself bit by bit into a better person and I promised tt...

When I was young,Kindergarden kid,I was very generous,friendly and cheerful,I mean it,cos even teacher also praise me in front of my parents,and basically every adult n frenz said tt I am hardworking,obedient and all...
I had tried very hard to put myself in a very obedient self to let my parents feel proud of me.
I was once confident of myself,confident in everything I do,I trust myself and I have a lot of frenz and happiness...
Though I live in a family which is not rich and indeed quite poor,I din even have the chance to eat out...[Even at hawker centre,the chance is very rare...]

My dad is very violent,took all my money,my savings from my allowances and even beat me or force me to give him wat I have...He used the money to drink,to gamble and to smoke...
I know all type of gamble and I did played them b4,I drink first tym of my life since at the age of ard 4...

Tiger Beer,Heniken,Gusiness,ABC,Gaslberg...etc
Drink b4,long tym ago...

I know how to write when I was at the age of ard 2...
I learnt cooking since primary 4,cos I am really very short at tt tym,I wasnt able to learn cooking till I am primary 4[Still need to depend on stool too]...
I wnt hm myself from sch since primary 1...
I gt my own hse key since primary 1 too...
I am very sociable when young,I made lots of frenz and I am very "da dan",I dare to do alot of things tt surprised ppl...
Such as when I am still at the age of primary 1,I brought my brother to my grandparents hse[only the 2 of us],from Yishun to Serangoon...

I started to be self fish towards my cousins when I was at very young age...cos my dad always spend his money on them,and when he spends his money,he will take from me very soon as this means tt he has no money,he will take from me,cos my bro is 1 yr younger than me,n he dun save,tt's y my dad target me as his "ATM" after my mum...
And when I was young,I already learnt "survival skills" and gaining bit by bit th ability to adapt to environment fast...

I hate my dad when I started to learn,when I grown older...
I nvr rebel my parents b4,in any choice,even the schools n CCA he wanted me to get into,I nvr fail to do so...
He wanted me to go "Yishun Primary School",I went,he wanted me to go "Nan Chiau High School",I managed to went in too,he wanted me to take "NPCC" as my CCA,I also managed to get into it...

Tt's not I wan...He gave me total freedom,I can go hm late,they trusted me,I always gain ppl's trust and I really felt stress[my own stress,I stressed myself too much]...

N becos I am afraid to lose,I stressed myself too much,I am suffering from depression...
I start working since Sec 1&2,flyer distributor,irregularly...
Then work at Pizza hut since Sec3 Nov-Dec...
Then work as Data Entry while waiting O' Level Result...Oso work b4 at Breadtalk...etc
Now I am working as Sales Assistant at Bengawan Solo,promoter...

I work myself as I believe I can support myself,I am born on 17th July,cancerian,very moody and easily hurt emotionally...
I was hurt by my dad numerously[by his words,actions...etc],I start to hate him n not trust him...[abit becos of this,I started not to trust anyone,especially guys]
I was forced to work and support myself as if at my age I should have already support myself [to him],I did not take a single cent from him since Sec4...And I even have to pay my handphone bill,internet bill,transport bill,food,necessities,some times gt more cos work more,I give them the money too...etc[every mth,regularly...]
I even paid more than half of the laptop myself...

I gave him all my scholarship,bursary,good progress awards...etc
And he claimed tt he owes all the money of mine as he's m father...etc[I do not wish to tok abt this]

I had been hurt by frenz and I learnt to protect myself through words[suan other ppl back,tt's y I gt strong suaning power...]

I was once felt tt this world is gonna end for me and dio depression[even if I protect myself with "shield",the shield also need to repair de,and I felt weak n lonely]...I tot of committing suicide but I do not have the courage to do so...Luckily of my teachers and some really good frenz,they saved me...

My results for O level had been very disappointing to myself,my teachers and frenz...
I was once the 2nd of the class and I dropped till the last few of the class...
My 5 "A1" dropped till 1...
All becos of my depression...None of my frenz nor teacher realise I have problems until the very last moment when I really cant take it and I cried everyday in my room,I look for them personally to seek for help...

Though my parents are both working,they are both low-educated,very little pay they gt,I have to support myself and to discipline myself to lighten their burden,tt was wat I tot...
But little do I noe tt,at my age,I am still not capable to manage everything tt well...

It was a "da ji"[shock] for me to go into poly...
All teacher nvr expect me to go into poly...
And at the moment on making decision to go to wat courses,I purposely choose the furthest and I actually mean to rebel my parents,but I nvr knew,they actually let me make my decision and juz remind me tt it's far...
I ignore them and said,"let tt then can test my determination to finish the course in 3 yrs mah...]
The other rebel is tt I told them I dun like to do hse work,though I did sometimes,but becos I really gt no time n tired after school and work,I think I escape the fate of doing all the house work...
But I also gt help de,when I free...
Cos I gt to work after school,then by the tym I reached hm will be ard 11.30pm,then my dad dun like ppl to do housework at night de...

But as fo going into Ngee Ann Polytechnic,I din regret,I love poly life,at least I feel tt I am gaining "myself" back...[Gaining my confidence bit by bit,I know many good frenz...]
I am sorry abt always cant make it for gathering,cos hope u all understand,I really gt my "ku zhong"[reasons]...

Now tt my dad had changed alot and I am gaining "myself" slowly,I hope I can keep it up...
There are still more to say[my story,but they are all past,I shall stop here...],I believe everyone has gt their own story,a fail or a sucess one,depend on how u c them...
I want to c the bright side of the world...

And from 2007 onwards,I will try my best to change myself,I noe I have alot of bad habits,bad points,I will change them all...but I need tym too...
Haha...
Let bygone be bygone,I will now stop brood over the past,stop living in the past and head towards the new,bright future!
Hope u all will too!=)

Take care my frenz!=) Heez...Gonna watch anime le...

=Jac=