Lets forget the negatives!

Mada Mada Dane...

Wednesday, March 14, 2007 ( 11:36 PM )

Hi everyone!

I love this phrase and feels tt it fits in my case...
"Mada Mada Dane"-In Prince of Tennis
It means "There is still more to work on..."

My results r poor...
I had nvr let my parents worries abt me n my results...
They trust me,they give me total freedom,can go hm late,go out at late night...etc
There are something that they dun give me,one of them is "money"...
Tt's y I've to earn them myself...
But becos of supporting myself n holding too many CCAs made me feels tired and the long journey to and fro sch made me tired too...

Perhaps,I am juz incapable...
Ppl can do it but mayb not me...
Though the journey is long from my hm to sch,but I will continue,I love NP,I love my frenz...
I cant give up my job too...
I wan to concentrate on my studies le,I dun wan to disappoint my parents,nvr shld I...
I had nvr been serious on studying b4,and even if I wanted to,I juz cant make myself study...
Something wrong with my brain,concentration n all...

Hope this new sem,new yr-2007,I will turn over a new leaf...

Btw,my parents had nvr asked abt my results,they juz wan to ask "fail or pass"...
They nvr ask me to study,nvr did they supervise me to study b4 and mayb tt's y...
They r low educated,they also dunno how to teach me,from primary sch till now,nvr once do they ask me to go study,all I did at hm r watch tv,eat...etc
Me,now studying in Poly,still going in this way,only study in school n on bus,nvr at hm...
Unless burn mid-night oil...

My dad saw the letter today [my results]...
He actually dun understand wat's it abt,then after looking at it for a while,he started to understand it...
Then his first sentence is,"Huh,no 'A' arh?"

I feel so bad though I din express it out and replied him,"But no fail mah..."
Btw,wanna tell u all,my parents nvr ask me for "A" b4,not even once,they dun check my results unless I show them my report book...
But last tym my results sure gt "A" de...
Except when I enter poly and starts to work,I nvr gt an "A" b4...

I dunno if I tell any of my frenz,I LIVE & STUDY BECOS OF MY PARENTS/FAMILY...
I even tot b4,shall suicide once I feels tt my parents no longer need me...

LoL...
I shall work on my studies...
I dun wan to feel bad anymore,I feel like I am owing them, owing them alot and too much...

Take care my frenz!=)
Jia you!

Learn from mistake and turn over a new leaf...

=Jac=