Lets forget the negatives!

I hate November.I dun really care.

Tuesday, November 20, 2007 ( 1:01 AM )

I hate November.I dun really care.

I juz now juz fought with my dad,and now we are no longer father and daughter.

It all happened juz a while ago(19 Nov,ard 2350):

He was drunk and when he reached home,he was picking his clothes to go bath lah.
He took a pair of pant tt looks like mine.
He said tt he last tym accidentally took the wrong pant and wear lah and after realised tt he gt the wrong pant,he put on the sofa in the living room lo.(Cos my mum packed it into his wardrobe,he juz take n wear,den realised tt it's not his...)

Den I say he's being dirty cos he nvr wash tt pant and place it on the sofa...
I pointed to tt pants(supposingly was juz taken down from the bamboo poles) and say it's dirty,ask my mum to wash again...(I din noe it was juz taken down from the bamboo poles)

Den my dad,cos he was drunk lah,den he became very frustrated.
He said wat I nvr c him as father,wat he wear before I cant wear meh,he also said that I tok very loudly to ans him,nvr respect...etc
I merely said,"cos of hygiene prob wat..."

Den he gave me a tight slap.
It hurts.

Den he pulled my hair also(C,I hate long hair,cos I no time to cut recently,if not,I wun have such long hair de lo),it really hurts.

Den upon seeing this,my mum dun dare to do anything lah,basically she couldnt do anything.
My brother asked him not to fight lo,he turned to my brother and challenged him,wanted to slap him also.
My brother was no longer the weak brother I know,he held on to him and asked him to stop.
My brother did not had a fight on my father,jus trying to hold him down.

My father became more violent!
He not only insists of slapping my brother,saying wat,"I am ur father,cant slap u meh? I cant beat u ah?"(In a very angry and loud voice)

My brother keep replying,"Can,I nvr say u cant...etc"
But my dad insists on hitting him,but he couldnt reach my brother,den he continue to say,"you tot I cant reach to hit u is it? (Cos my brother is really much taller than my father)"

Den I think my brother let go of his hands,den he starts to take the wooden stool and wanna hit onto my brother,my brother keep defence for himself,he did not had the intention to fight my father,he did not want to hurt himself too...

I stood up from the sofa and shouted at him,asked him to stop.
He turned to me saying,"none of his biz,he wan to fight me,I fight back lah...etc"
I replied,"He nvr wanted to fight u lah,he's protecting himself,anyone like u bringing the wooden stool throwing to ppl,that person will also defence de lo...etc"

I dunno wat happen,I juz said,"It has nothing to do with him,my fault rite,wan to beat,beat me k?"
He pulled my hair again,den he said,"As ur father,I give u eat...etc I gt wrong meh...etc"
I said,"No...etc"
Den he said,"y u all nvr give me face,always wan to tok back leh?"
I said,"Unreasonable things,of cos muz say out wat."
Dad,"I gt say wrong meh? Y cant u juz respect me...etc"
Me,"Watever you said may be usable at ur generation,u can hit ppl with parang in the past,now u cant,u c or not? Now is gt law one leh,u can anyhow bring parang and chop ppl one meh?...etc"

Den dunno how,he linked to,"you think very good is it,ask u to slp early you dun wan,keep staying up...etc"
I say I gt proj wat and also I reached home late due to work...
He say dunno wat,I forgt le.
I only rmb I replied him with,"...cos you cannot support me,I had to work and study at the same time,you think I not tired ah? You think I like it this way ah? You think I dun wan to slp ah? I need to pay for everything,transport,food,internet broadband...etc"

He said,"Good,you can support urself,den in future dun ask me for help...etc"
In my heart: I nvr ask for ur help b4 since Kindergarten lo(Other than taking pocket money from my mum when I still cant support myself(Primary 1 till Secondary 4),and most of the time,I saved up my pocket money and u took it back lo,all my scholarship,bursary awards all belongs to u,for u to gamble...)

I replied,"Fine."
Now my concern is tt my brother also kana his reprimand,and he asked my mum not to give my brother allowances...
I am sorry my brother.

I cried of cos,cos it is pain and it was more pain when I speak up for myself tt I am really tired to support myself...

Nvm,w/o him,I think I can be better,I will prove to him.
*In the course of dialogue with my father,he also say it's my own fault to cause myself to be so tired,he doesnt feel tt he is wrong or anything,not even pity...
He say who ask me to choose NP,so far,serve myself rite this kind of stuffs...

Well,one more yr...

In the past I had already been looking forward to after getting the diploma n move out of this place le...

One more yr,hope I can pull thru...

K lah,I now already stopped my tears,going to do proj...
Now then I realised that how neutral I can be actually to know we are no longer dad n daughter...

Take care everyone.
Cya.

=Jac=