Lets forget the negatives!

Everything is gonna be alrite...

Saturday, April 26, 2008 ( 1:31 AM )

Everything is gonna be alrite...

My mum is gone,she wun be back...

So many things happened during the holiday till now...

I am officially not working at Bengawan Solo from next Wed...
I am going to enrol for driving lesson and also take my Basic Theory Test...
My mum had left us,she wun be back...T_T (I missed her.)
I need to focus on my studies and to handle this family.
I am still working the Weekend job,cos I need $ to support myself...

*For ur info...
I am working since Sec1...
Since Sec3 I officially not receiving a single cent from my parents.
N in my poly life,since year one,I'm holding 2 jobs (Bengawan Solo & Weekend Job) n 4 CCAs...
N out of the 4 CCAs,I am in the main comm of 3...=)
I stay VERY FAR from sch,need ard 2 hours to reach home.

I'm under long-term medical observation...
(there's a period of time when I have to take medicine everyday,but now under observation,so not having medicine le,but still have to go Tan Tock Seng Hospital to see doctor n also do all blood test on a regular basis...etc)

If u wan to say I am fortunate,yes I agree,I usually can achieve wat I wan...
(But juz tt my studies is really poor,I need to work hard on it already...=X)

If u wan to say I am rich/poor,I agree...
(Rich cos I am working,in this way,my salary may be higher than ur pocket money bah...Poor cos I had to earn every single cent to support myself...)

Though I had to pay for:

~Transport($52)
~Internet Bill($40)
~Handphone($28 each month cos I'm using Singtel prepaid card)
~Food
~Necessities
~Household stuffs/Domestic stuffs
...etc

I muz earn at least $400 per month...
Even so...

Till now,I had my own life,I live on my own,I love it.

I enjoyed it.
Juz maybe some times I am not happy,but I forgt abt them quickly,so it's ok.
I am easily hot-tempered I noe...
But maybe juz tt few times...

I may say things tt hurt or offend ppl,but...

I am still learning too,learning to control myself,and also my emotions...
So I apologize here if I've made any mistakes...

I used to control my emotions,feelings,thoughts and concentration very well in the past...
Dunno y,as I grew older,I seemed to be influenced easily,not as firm n strong as before,my determination was also not as strong as before...=(

I hope to go back to the old happy-go-lucky Jac...
But,I knew,it can nvr happen cos...

"Changes is the only thing tt keep constant..."

Well,much of my sharing above...
I am still me,juz tt I am reflecting myself in the blog.

I may not be the one u all noe,I may not be the one u all c,I may juz look diff from wat I really am.
But u all cant c,cant get into my world.

*Step by step,we will learn,we will grow.

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*I love my mum,I hope u can be back.

=Jac=